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June 17th, 2021 at 8:40pm] |
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Sorry you can't define me. Sorry I break the mold. Sorry that I speak my mind. Sorry don't do what I'm told. Sorry if I don't fake it. Sorry I come too real. I will never hide what I really feel( . )
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[Thursday
June 17th, 2021 at 7:54pm] |
SPAM/ANON/VOICEMAIL/TEXT
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[Sunday
June 21st, 2009 at 11:01am] |
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I wanna wish a very special Happy Father's Day to my daddy, my baby daddy ♥, Brady, and Nate. I love you all!
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[Saturday
June 20th, 2009 at 2:49pm] |
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( Home. )
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[Thursday
June 18th, 2009 at 7:16pm] |
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Never in a million years did I think I'd end up in Chicago. For years, my life has always been California and New York, with the occasional trip to Tennessee to stay at the forgotten ranch I bought Kristian a while ago. Chicago doesn't seem like home to me ..not yet, anyway. The more I think about it, the more I'm tempted to pack my things and run back to New York to the life I've always known. I think Kristian is still out there with the kids, but I'm not entirely sure. Alex and Angelina are staying with their father until I get the club up and running, and then they're coming out here to live with me. It's only been a few days but I miss them waaay too much. Alex has been texting me (yes, texting. My eight year old is texting. Don't get me started) like the smart ass he is, telling me that he stole a beer from the fridge and drank it. And liked it. Or that he thinks the new girl who moved in next door is sexy. My little baby is texting and using words like 'sexy' ..I just can't handle that right now. All I know is that Kristian is in for a beating next time I see him.
It's not like I'm completely alone out here. Brady is here and so is Josie, Arissa and Luke. Being around her is like purposely giving myself a headache, but there's nothing I can do about that. She's family and I guess I have to keep her close. I think Brady might still be mad at me for not telling him that I was going to move out here, but I'm not too worried about that. He's a grown man, he'll get over it. My arrival shouldn't make that much of a difference anyway. Him and I have lived near each other for years now, with the exception of him moving to Chicago months ago and me crying about it. Let's not get into that right now. There's a lot that I could say on the topic of Brady, but what's the point? None of it matters. Most of it has been said anyway, so we'll leave it at that.
Painting for the club has officially started! I celebrated by buying myself a pair of new shoes to wear to the grand opening, which should be sometime in July if everything goes according to plan. There's an ad in the paper already about employees and I've already interviewed a bunch of people who seem competent. Only time will tell, I guess.
( I miss them. ♥ )
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[Saturday
December 13th, 2008 at 10:53pm] |
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If one more person leaves California, I swear I'm going to lose my fucking mind. I didn't last long out in New York by myself for that reason -- I was by myself. I moved back because I missed everyone and Kristian and I were going to work things out. Things have worked out and now everybody else is getting the hell out of dodge and I don't know why. Aidan was the first to go. I wasn't that close to him, but I still wished him well. Then Brooke jumps on the plane and heads off to the east coast to pursue her fashion career. I get it, New York is where all the big names are and I want her to be happy, so it was bittersweet. I miss my bitch like crazy and I cried a little when she left. Then out of the blue, Ethan leaves. I still can't talk about that. Then while I'm at work the other night, Brady's acting all weird. When we were closing up, he drops the bomb. He's moving to Chicago. Looking back, I acted like an immature child. All I did was wish him luck, bite my tongue and locked myself in the office for the rest of the night. I avoided him until the day he was set to leave, and I locked myself on him as if I'd never let go. Josie had to remind me that he still had to hug his daughter, but I didn't care. She had to pry me off him.
I just want to know what's so great about Chicago. I mean seriously. It's a state filled with corrupt politicians, lots of wind, and people who think they live in the greatest city on earth. NEGATIVE. At this point, I'm thinking about selling the club and moving down to the ranch in Tennessee with Kristian and the kids, though I haven't really mentioned that idea to him yet. Who knows, maybe one day I'll wake up to find that Kristian already moved there without telling me. At this point, I wouldn't put anything past anyone.
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