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[27 Feb 2008|01:54am]
Soooooooo....I'm alive! But just barely, for now. I've been sick. Perhaps I'll update more later? As in, before work tomorrow? Wait, as in before I go to the tattoo shop, which will be before work tomorrow?

Fuck it, I'll update a bit now.

I don't remember last time I actually updated...hmm. So everyone knows about Adrian, right? If not, either you'll figure it out, or you can ask, cos I'm pretty sure I've written about him before.

We're still together, in fact I went and picked him up from Olympia last night, he stayed at my house, he'll be here on Thursday after work too! That makes me happy.

Um...hmm...I've been sick, with the flu for the past like, 3 or 4 days. I didn't think I was getting really sick at first, I was at the shop watching piercings, and I noticed I was getting a headache, and it only got worse and worse as the day/night went on. The next day I was dead. I had to call into work and not go in 2 days in a row, but they called me in today, and I'm not completely over being sick, but my fever is FINALLY gone as of last night, so thats good.

Hmm. Did I mention previously that my goal for the future is to now be a piercer? Tommy is sortof apprenticing me right now, but since he's still learning himself (he was an apprentice to Markus before, but he's "professional" now, but there are some piercings he's never done) he's not completely comfortable in fully apprenticing me until probably next year. But he's letting me watch all his piercings that he does, and when he tells them I'm going to be watching, he introduces me as his apprentice, so I feel all fancy. :D I get to watch, and help him out with things sometimes, so thats awesome. And I really am learning a lot. I'm so excited. Usually when people come in to get pierced, we only get like, lip piercings, nostril piercings, and random ear piercings, so those are cool to watch and stuff, but they get kinda monotonous, cos I've seen them so much. BUT! The other day I got to watch Tommy pierce a girl's nipples, and this guy came in to get a frenum piercing (which is on the penis), and I got to watch both! Those were awesome and different! And today I got to watch a septum piercing. So pretty much if you were to talk to me on the phone, most of what I talk about is piercing stuff.

I got new piercings recently. I got double eyebrow piercings on the right side. I'll take pictures as soon as I don't look like shit anymore.

Thats really all I know to say right now. Oh, I've started video blogging on youtube, you can find me, and SUBSCRIBE to me here: http://www.youtube.com/user/hollowxlies

Also, I'm part of a video project on youtube, where there are 5 of us, and every day of the week each of us posts a video. We're on week 2 now, and it could get fun and exciting soon, so please go subscribe! http://www.youtube.com/user/weekdaywarriors

The place where we got the idea for the project is from these guys, which you should also go love, cos they're awesome, and love Harry Potter, and a few of them are wizard rockers! http://www.youtube.com/user/fiveawesomegirls

It might also be worthwhile to check out http://www.youtube.com/user/fiveawesomeguys

And, because I'm totally in love with John and Hank Green, and I think everyone else should be too, and you should all watch Brotherhood 2.0 religiously from the VERY BEGINNING, go here: http://www.youtube.com/user/vlogbrothers

Trust me, you'll love John and Hank. They're awesome.
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[13 Feb 2008|03:11pm]
http://houseofwords.darkbb.com

This community is for people who love to write. Here's a brief explanation about it:

House of Words is a writing project and community, inspired by the project National Novel Writing Month. Our focus, however, is short stories, short shorts, and novelettes.

Have you ever begun writing a short piece of literature that you were enthusiastic about, but never managed to get around to working much on it, ultimately leaving it to dust? This certainly can be a tragedy, stopping great literature from ever reaching its potential! House of Words is here to set standards within your writing, pushing you to finish the work you create! By setting deadlines, it influences the author to finish what they started.

Have you ever written a story, only for it to remain solitary and unread, never reaching its full potential and influence as a piece of art? House of Words is here for you to show your writing to others, to receive positive feedback and constructive criticism to make you an even better writer!

We set goals, depending on the story you intend writing, to give you a goal to work towards! Here are the standards we've set, applicable to each week starting Sunday 12am to Saturday 11:59 pm. It is set up by word count:

Short Shorts: 1,000
Short Story: 5,000
Novellette: 10,000

Some people need to be pushed to these limits to write even one story. But, if you can write more, we greatly encourage you to fulfill your creative potential! If you intend on writing a short short or a short story, and it ends up being longer and something more, excellent!

The purpose of this community is to bring writers together so we can exercise our full potential in creation, and to enjoy the works of others who love writing just as much! If you explore the stickys in the writing forums, it will give you more information on posting and setup!

If you have already joined, THANK YOU FOR BECOMING PART OF THE COMMUNITY!!! And if you are interested, we encourage you to try it out, and see if this community is for you!

WELCOME TO THE HOUSE OF WORDS!!!



If anyone's interested, please join! Me and my friend Cory are the admins of the forum, he created it, I just help out. If you like writing go check it out!
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[13 Feb 2008|01:53am]
Book List 2008

1. Looking for Alaska by John Green
Started: Febrary 2, 2008
Finished: February 9, 2008
Pages: 221
Opinion: I LOVED this book! I cried like a baby, and I'd highly recommend it to EVERYONE!

2. "Hello," I Lied by M.E. Kerr
Started: February 9, 2008
Finished: February 12, 2008
Pages: 171
Opinion: I actually really hated this book. It was horribly written. It made me understand how I SHOULDN'T write things. Its choppy, and corny, and very cliche. Don't read it. Just run away and read Looking for Alaska instead. :)

Total Pages Read: 392
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[13 Feb 2008|01:45am]
I got a new tattoo today! I love it! Markus did it. I asked him for a pin-up girl, with a gun, and he drew this up, in an hour. He's still got to add the colour, and a background, which we haven't decided on yet, but still, here's the general idea of it!



What do you think?
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[10 Feb 2008|06:52pm]
I just wanted to tell everyone that I redownloaded AIM a second ago, my new screen name is:

novacainexjunkie



Add me!
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[09 Feb 2008|12:28pm]
I just finished reading the book Looking for Alaska by John Green, and I think it is my second favourite book (my first being Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky). I cried like a baby, at work none the less, and fell in love with it, and it makes me feel good. I highly reccommend it to anyone wanting to read something good.

I've decided to keep track of ALL the books I read this year, and how many pages I read as well. I tend to read books multiple times, so if you see something twice on my list as it grows, its all good.

Book List 2008

1. Looking for Alaska by John Green
Started: Febrary 2, 2008
Finished: February 8, 2008
Pages: 221

Total Pages Read: 221
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[08 Feb 2008|10:48pm]
I feel like I don't even know you anymore, and sometimes thats okay. I know its okay. I know things have changed. I feel like when I talk to you, you don't take me seriously. I miss you.

I started working at DQ again. I like the change in the store, but not the people. I'm stressed already. I need money, I'm honestly poor, and freaking out about it.

I need my car to be fixed so I don't waste my mom's gas. I need it to go to see Adrian more often. I just need it. I feel trapped without it.

I fucked up Project 365, I forgot to take a picture the other day. Ah well. 150 days down the drain I suppose.

I want to move. To Olympia. Bad.

Also, I have this for you:

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[23 Jan 2008|04:11pm]
First off, I want to say that I'm very, completely, totally devastated that Heath Ledger is dead. I found out yesterday by Adrian. I was in the other room, and he was on the computer, and I walked in the room and he told me. I thought it was a mistake, like he meant that Brad Renfro died, cos he did a few days ago, and I was sad about that too, but not nearly as much. But then he opened the msnbc page about it, and it was true. I cried yesterday about it. I'm such a baby, but he was a great actor.

I've been in Olympia since Sunday, woot! I'm going home in a few hours, my mom is coming to get me. I see myself watching The L Word when I get home. And drowning myself on the internet. There was something else I was going to do when I get home, but I can't remember at all what it is. Hmm. Upload pictures, play Guitar Hero, talk my sister into bringing Guitar Hero 3 to my house, lucky bastard.

Adrian will be down this weekend, mostly to hang with his friends, but on Saturday he's getting his nose pierced, thats exciting! I want mine done again, but I know it never works for me. Meh.

This entry is really pointless now that I think about it. It feels like I have so much to say, but really I don't.

I bought Boondock Saints yesterday. :D That movie makes me so happy.

I really have nothing else to say at the moment. Well, I probably do, I just can't think of it.

The last thing I'll say is that I hope everything works out for Sam and Eddie, cos it makes me sad that they're fighting and seperated now.
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[17 Jan 2008|02:03am]
Have you ever had those days where you just really want to write something, really really bad (or if you don't write, then the equivalent to that, whatever it is you do...) but when you get a little tiny spark of something in your brain, when you sit down to fully form it, it just doesn't work out? Thats how I've been since yesterday. I REALLY want to write something, anything, and its just not happening. I know you aren't supposed to force these things, but its been ages since I've written, and its starting to drive me insane. It makes me feel useless, because I know I'm good at writing, and its not happening. Another problem with my writing is that I wish I were more versatile. I wish I could write something that everyone enjoyed, not just certain groups of people. I've got close close friends who will never read some of the things I have written, or will write, because it just doesn't suit them, or they'd find it inappropriate. I could never let my own mother read half of the stuff I write. I write graphic, raunchy sex scenes, and I've heard I write them well.

I also wish I could take constructive critism better. I hate when I post one of my stories somewhere, and somebody gives it to me. When I read what they have to say, to me, its actually just ripping apart my story and forcing me to take away all the stuff that I personally like about it. Sometimes I can't even let my best friends read my things for fear of them ripping them apart. Well, thats not true, I just feel like that sometimes, I always let them read things, as long as they're willing. Usually what they have to say does end up helping me, but at first I just feel that everything I've written is shit.

I can't write "normal" things, whatever that is. And when I try to, it either turns out to be some really horrible teen story/novel, or something that is mimicking a different author, and everyone who reads it knows it. Like my novel that I wrote in 2006, I love it, completely, but when you read it, it just oozes Perks of Being A Wallflower. I don't know how to get away from that. It makes me feel like maybe I should never read another book/story ever, so I'm not tainted, but then I'd become all unintelligent and thats not cool. Its frustrating, totally.

I dunno...somebody inspire me. I thought that Ingrid Michaelson was inspiring me, but in the end I just sat here, staring at the blank page.
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8 [15 Jan 2008|02:37pm]
[ mood | hungry ]
[ music | Animal - Def Leppard ]

Okay wow, a *real* update for you! Hooray! I really haven't been doing much. Lets see, I never talk to Victoria anymore, cos she's a drunk loser who has no clue about anything, ever. But the good thing is that back 2 weeks ago, around New Years, lots of stuff happened. Here's a mini update about it:

Friday, December 28 -

Me and my friend Shad went to Seattle, and we went clubbing. We went to this gay club called Neighbors. He danced the night away with this guy named Kasey, who ended up kissing me. Gross. And I danced with this guy named Ryan, who was sweet and all, but way too old for me. Me and Shad got suuuuuper drunk, and it was fun.

Saturday, December 29 -

My mom and Carolyn took me to a gay bar, haha. They got me totally shit faced, and I was hitting on this girl working at the bar. They made fun of me for it. The whole night I was texting my friend Adrian, who lives down the street from the bar, he was partying with his friend and invited me over, but instead I said I'd come up the next day and we'd party.

Sunday, December 30 (New Year's Eve) -

I went to Adrian's house early, we hung out, then got drunk on disgusting watermelon vodka, never again. But it was fun. We started talking, and I admitted I'd liked him for a long time, and he was always my favourite person. I told him I thought he was sexy. He told me he liked me too, and we started kissing. Then it was almost midnight, so we were laying on the couch, and he was like, "I'm supposed to kiss you at midnight", and he did.

So since then, me and Adrian have been together. He's wonderful. He's not like anyone I've ever been with. He's sweet, and a little shy, and adorable, and I just love to look him in the eyes, and when he looks back I get all excited and butterflies are in my stomach and stuff. Hehe.

On a different note, the other day my friend Ryan texted me asking me if I was interested in playing in a band with him, my friend Josh, and this kid that was in band with us, Ben. I said yes, but I didn't know what he wanted me to play. It turns out he wants me to play bass, and maybe sing occasionally. Now let me start off by saying that I SUCK at the bass, and yeah, I'm lame. But today he came over and taught me the two songs they've written, and I totally rocked them, and it was marvelous. So it looks like I'm in! Whoooo! Mission: accomplished.

So now I just gotta wait and see when practice is, he said it'll most likely either be later today, or Thursday.

Thats all I've got for right now.

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7 [06 Jan 2008|02:57pm]
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6 [15 Dec 2007|11:02pm]
I hung out with Victoria the last two nights. I was really cautious about it, because last time we hung out, we got in a big fight, and I was really upset and disappointed with her. Let me back up and explain that first, before I go on writing about more recent events.

I got a message on Myspace a few months ago from Victoria, I'd never met her before, but she said she was on my friend Ashley's profile and saw I was on her top 8, and thought I looked cool and all. So I added her, and I said we should hang out, cos she just lives across town, so yeah. We hung out a few times, and she's got this bad habit of being late for EVERTHING. But I got past that, it wasn't a really big deal at the time.

Now I'm in no way an expert at dating, but to me it sounded like we were going on a date, ya know? And she acted like she was interested in me, and at first I thought she was just cool as a friend, nothing more, but as we got to talking I realised I really could start to like her, and I did in fact. She would text me telling me I was hot and all that, flirting like crazy, so I assumed she was in to me.

Well, one day she was supposed to come to my house, I cleaned up everything so she could come over, and she kept telling me "Give me 30 more minutes, I've gotta do something" and "I have to take Daisy (her best friend) somewhere, give me another hour." Well, that turned into her having to babysit, at like 2AM, so I yelled at her, telling her I did so much to be able to have her over, and I was just really disappointed in her.

The next day she told me the truth finally: She had been seeing somebody else (Stephanie) and they'd gotten into a huge fight and she had to go over there. I told her since she's not my girlfriend, I have no problem with her seeing other people, the only thing I ask is that if she makes plans with me, don't break them, and don't lie to me. She told me I was too pushy, and I was pressuring her and stuff.

So, thats the background about that.

So, about three days ago, after not hearing from her since before Thanksgiving, she texted me asking if I have plans on my birthday yet (its on the 20th) and I said no, not really, and she said she'd take me out if I wanted. Awesome. And I asked her if she wanted to hang out sometime, to just call me and stuff, I never really do anything.

I didn't expect her to call right away, but she did the next night. She was at the bar down the street, and I walked down and met her, and we just drove around, and caught up and stuff. She appologised so much for the way she acted and treated me last time, and she said she was just confused, and she's since stopped seeing Stephanie, and that she really likes me, and that she wants to not only appologise to me, but also to my mom, and my friends, because their first impression of her was really shitty. I felt that she meant every word of it, and it made me feel really good.

Since she was drunk, I drove her car to my house and parked it and we took my mom's car around, and then at around 4:30 AM, I dropped her off at her car, and I went inside my house to go to sleep. I got a text from her saying something like, "I feel like I'm in grade school or something telling you this, but I really wanted to kiss you just now." And I said that if she came back I'd let her kiss me, and she came back after going to get gas. I went out there, sat in her car and talked a bit more, and then I just kissed her. It was kind of exciting.

So then, last night I texted her asking how she was, and what she was doing later, she said she had to work til around midnight, but she wasn't doing anything, and she asked if I wanted to hang out of a bit. I was really tired, but I wanted to see her again, so she got off work, went to get her car from her sister at the bar, but that didn't work cos her sister had to work in the morning, so I went and got her. When I got there, her two friends, who were so funny, asked if they could get a ride, and it was on the way anyway, so I said yes. The girl was nice, realllly drunk though, and the guy was hilarious, he was Russian, and he kept asking us questions, so funny. When I got to their house, the girl handed me 10 bucks and thanked me about a million times. Score!

So then we went to 7-11 and saw this kid who Victoria works with, he's adorable, and he said there was a party going on (I went to a party with Victoria at the same place last month) and so we went. I was the only sober one there, which is hilarious to watch a bunch of drunk people sing karaoke. Haha. I took videos with this one girls camera. I forgot mine in the car, otherwise I'd post them. While we were sitting on the couch, Victoria held my hand, and I said I wanted to leave, plus, it was like 4:30 AM and I needed to get my mom's car to her by 6 so she could go to work, and I still had to take Victoria home, all the way across town. So we got up and left, and I parked the car somewhere, where we talked some more. I kissed her, then stopped, and told her how I felt. I told her that I was scared that she was just going to disappoint me again, and that I kindof felt like I'm wasting my time, and that I don't want to be fucked over. She said I'm totally not wasting my time, and she really likes me a lot, and there's nothing to worry about. So we kissed some more, and it was awesome, and then I looked at the clock, it was somehow 5:30 then, and so we had to go. I took her home, and then I got to my house with 10 minutes to spare. My mom called me when I was driving, she thought it was funny I stayed out til 6 in the morning.

So thats my last couple of days. Fun, eh?
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5 [14 Dec 2007|12:55am]
So I was just on my deviantart account, and I was looking at my friend Martin's profile, and saw that he said I was his favourite writer:

Favourite poet or writer: (Megyn)=LibertineJewel you have to be ^^

I'm giddy. I think I love that boy for this. It makes me feel good, especially since I've been working on a fic for the past 2 hours. Yes, I'm actually WRITING, not READING right now. I've got 3 chapters of it posted on ff.net. Check out my fic list, its the one on the bottom. Mmhmm.

And I've been talking to my friend Koriina, she's awesome. Patrick got us talking a looooong time ago, and she's decided to stalk me, and now I'm certain we need to hang out. Yeah. She's rocking my socks off.

I'm going to take pictures of my friend Jeff tomorrow, he asked me to. He said he'll buy me lunch afterward. Awesome. And I've got to go back into Gargoyle's and see if Tommy can stretch my ears this time. We tried today, but I've found that if I watch him pierce somebody else beforehand, it tends to make me feel lightheaded. So I got dizzy while he was stretching one of my ears. I'm going from 1/2" to 5/8", and I'm pretty sure thats where I'll stop. My mom bought me these awesome bone and mother of pearl plugs for Christmas, and they're sitting at the Gargoyle's right now, waiting for me to come in for them tomorrow.

And for some reason I've been wanting cloves today. Maybe I'll get some. Yeah.

The point is, I feel amazing right now, no, I feel INFINITE. Yeah.
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4 [11 Dec 2007|02:01am]
Fuck, I just got done reading Beautiful World by Cinnamon, and it was good. I cried. Goddamn fic writers who make me cry. Apparently some of my fics have made people cry...I dunno. The point is, its good, and I love Draco in it, so much.
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2 [10 Dec 2007|12:26am]
To Do List:

1. Figure out whats going on with GJ.
2. Find all my friends and bring them here, and IJ.
3. Find all Kita's friends for her.
4. Find Christmas card lists for me and Kita.
5. Get icons.
6. Fix my rec list/fic list here AND IJ. (GJ is broken, make everything linked from FF.net, or AFF.net)
7. Die a little bit.
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1 [10 Dec 2007|12:06am]
[ mood | upset ]

So I hear that GJ is closing, and I've got this gut wrenching feeling that I'll never speak to some of my old friends ever again. I had important things saved that I figured I'd back up tomorrow, seriously, and now I can't get onto the site at all. I'm hoping that if I try again tomorrow, it'll work.

For now, hope my friends from GJ will find me over here. I also have an LJ account, so if you have one, add me, I'm xhollowxliesx over there.

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20 [20 May 2007|02:19pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Ok, it has been told to me that begging for a stalker is the totally wrong way to go about having friends on here, and that I need to talk about interesting things, not about killing myself, because I'm not actually suicidal or anything, except the other day watching American Idol, I told Kita and Devvan that if by some crazy happening Bo got voted off I'd have to kill myself, of course, but because America is on my side right now, I'm still living...until next week...or something. The thing that sucks though is that next Tuesday, when Idol is on, we are all going to be at my choir concert, so not only will we miss the most important episode ever, but we'll also miss the season finale of House, which I'm also in love with. So anyway, Wednesday we'll also be gone due to my band concert, so we'll miss the final episode of American Idol as well!!!!! But, my dear sweet mother says she will record all three of those very important shows for us! This has been me...signing off...

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15 [02 Apr 2007|01:58pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]
[ music | The Bitch Song- Bowling for Soup ]

Ah, almost time to go to work. I really don't want to. Last night we were so busy, we had to call in Cory, who had already worked that day anyway. I didn't get to leave until about 10:50, when we close at 10:00 and that was when I was scheduled to leave! Yeah, so I've been freaking out lately, I don't think Devvan is going to graduate, and thats not good, and I already told him what would happen if he doesn't. But on a lighter note, tomorrow is CAKE DAY! oh, if you don't know what the means, its someones birthday...Who you ask? DEVVAN! so anyways, now I need to go to work. Oh yeah, I found out what Dorinda's baby is, its a boy. Oh well, I guess I'll never get rid of that baby stuff.

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9 [21 Mar 2007|02:06pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]
[ music | Some stupid stuff Mr. Gary is playing. ]

Yes I realize I just wrote stuff a few minutes ago, but I'm bored. WHO CARES???? Amazing how boring it gets in Computer Apps. when there's nothing to do because your one of two seniors in the class, plus Kita. We rock. Oh yeah. Poor Kristi, her internet isn't working. Sucky. Oh well. Mine is, for now. Its amazing too. Blah, meh, gack...I'm done again.

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19 [20 May 2005|01:50pm]
Wardrobe key
You're a slightly tarnished metal key, and you
unlock the wardrobe. At first glance, you seem
to present only simple, everyday things, but
anyone who looks deeper will find much more.
Just don't expect everyone to believe in you,
and those who don't may not grasp your worth.


What sort of key are you and what do you unlock?
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