_goaskmalice (_goaskmalice) wrote, @ 2018-10-03 13:50:00 |
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Entry tags: | timeline: season three, where: library |
{all a matter of perspective}
She watches them through the window of the library door and wonders how come Buffy gets to have a perfect little life. It doesn't seem fair that Buffy gets to have the perfect mom, the perfect set of friends who are accepting of what she is, the perfect Watcher and of course defanged vampire for a love interest.
Buffy looks anxious about something and Faith suspects that it's probably not about the sudden increase of vampires or dead bodies or even the Mayor. If she was still the betting type - and had someone to bet with - Faith would lay money that Buffy's probably all anxious about Angel instead of what's really going on. It's really not fair that Giles tolerates the fact that Buffy spends more time obsessed with being normal than being the Chosen One. As incompetent as Wesley is, Faith finds that he at least tries to remain focused on what is supposed to be important for a Slayer.
If she still felt that the white hats had a winning chance, she'd try to be the Slayer that Wesley could be proud of. If not for his sake but at least for Professor Dormer's sake. But it's pretty clear that the white hats aren't going to win. And even if they had a chance, Faith is glad that she's on the Mayor's side. He sees her for what she is. Under his guidance, she's trying to be a better person.
Sure a few of the things he's asked her to do, haven't been good but she's come to the conclusion that what is considered good is all a matter of perspective. Buffy and her pathetic little group of friends are convinced they are on the side of good. But Faith's not so convinced. She's wondered how many people were killed by Angelus and his spawn when Buffy was moping around unable to drive a stake in his undead heart because he used to be Angel. Faith can't deny that Angel is rather yummy but she doubts that she would have had any issue with getting the job done had she been in Buffy's shoes.
And when she thinks about what the Mayor is trying to do, she's not wholly convinced that he's evil. Who gets to decide that the pursuit of power is a bad thing or even evil? Faith knows that neither Buffy nor Giles believe Oz to be evil even though he turns into a mindless werewolf when the moon is full. She's even suspects that if he were to get lose and kill someone, they would accuse the behaviour of his beastly nature like they've excused Angel's actions when he was Angelus.
She takes a deep breath as she prepares to push open the door. For people that are quick to make judgments about good and evil, she finds that they see too many shades of grey. How many people are going to die tonight because Buffy's more obsessed with her boyfriend than with the vampires that the Mayor has brought in? For someone who's supposed to be good, Faith feels that Buffy really isn't. And it's why she knows they're going to lose.
The door swings open and Faith pastes on a grin and greets them. It's time to pretend that she's not switched sides. At the end of the day, good and evil is such a pale thing to be fighting for or against. She'd rather be on the winning side and the Mayor has the focus and power to win. Not some whiny high school girl who wants to be normal when she could be a god.
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