Shout when you want to get off the ride

[Jesse, Joey, Nikkie and St Anthony]

okay fuck.

jesse and i haven't heard from nicky in three weeks and we expected he would be out of contact because he would be so busy. then this afternoon we got a letter supposedly from him saying he couldn't handle the baby and everything and he left us. but he wouldn't. i'm sorry, he wouldn't. he's been so excited and he's always talking about how happy he is to have family- he wouldn't give that up. it's his handwriting but- it wasn't him. it didn't sound like nicky. and we called the club and hannah in nola and he's not there and hasn't been.

i think something really bad happened and someone made him write that shit. we have to find him. fuck.