Roger Llewyn Davies

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OOC INFO

NAME: Roger Llewyn Davies
NICKNAMES: Rog
AGE AND DOB: 24
GENDER: Male
HAIR: Very dark brown
EYES: Hazel
BUILD: 6', Slim but defined

MARITAL STATUS: Single
SEXUALITY: Bisexual/Graysexual
OCCUPATION: Reseacher - Dept of Mysteries - Time Dept

REASON FOR PLACEMENT AT RETREAT: Admitted at the request of his grandfather following another severe mood cycle and related drug overdose

HOGWARTS HOUSE:Ravenclaw
WAR ALLEGIANCE: Favored the DA, but unaffiliated
FRIENDS:Various acquaintances, mostly from Ravenclaw class of '94
ENEMIES:Himself? Maybe Cho?
PARENTS:Mother is deceased, grandmother deceased, father is unknown. Grandfather is alive and sort of in the picture.
SIBLINGS:
N/A NOTABLE ASSOCIATIONS: Ravenclaw Quidditch team 91-94. Ministry of Magic. Positives
+ Friendly: Spot Roger on the street? Come say hello! A little old witch needs help with her bags? He’ll carry them! Having the worst day ever? Roger will come over with a pint of ice cream and let you cry your heart out. Need a pal at the pub? Call him over! He finds people, both magical and muggle extremely fascinating and enjoys human interaction (and yes, he does phrase it like this) a great deal, though for short amounts of time. He is better at one-on-one or small groups, though he also enjoys observing large groups where he can sit back and remained unnoticed. Roger can be a very lighthearted person with a hint of dark humor and a realistic (some would say pessimistic) nature. He likes to see people smile; friendly and approachable, he strikes up conversations with anyone, anywhere.
+ Charming: That smile; the warm brown eyes; the subtle touches or movement closer to you; the way he makes you feel as though you are the only person in the world when he talks to you. Yes, Roger is charming, and damn good at it. With a mind like his, small cues in body language do not go unnoticed and he counters with the proper movement. Not to say he is fake, but he certainly knows how to work a person or situation to his advantage. He is also a very fun person to go pub-hopping with, and is one of the best wingman you could ask for.
+ Smart: Roger’s mind never quits. Everything he does and says is well thought out, like a chess player, and he is already reading two moves ahead. Concepts come easily to him, and his schooling came easy. Tiny details are easily recalled even months later. He loves sharing information and gets excited over concepts, especially math related. It isn't unusual for him drunken ramble on and bore his mates with math.

Negatives
- Insecure: Roger, on the outside, is exceptionally charismatic with a devil-may-care attitude. He was always astonished at his own popularity at Hogwarts as he preferred his own company. He rationalizes his good luck with women with the explanation that they see him as the ‘perfect accessory’. However, when faced with the task of talking to someone he actually fancies, Roger becomes nervous and will instead obsess over the possible outcome of the conversation, or analyze the conversation in his head rather than moving forward. He had the most difficult time getting over the mess that was Cedric and then Cho, and it is still a very sore subject. Due to them, he has been hesitant to open up and really get to know others beyond casual flings. He keeps his own wife at arm's length. No one ever believes Roger is insecure, rather often told: “You’re the most confident person I know!” Roger is a very complex person who struggles with the duality of this nature.
- Emotionally Unavailable: Roger is genuinely interested in other people and what they have to say… until they want to know more about him. While he can talk to you for hours about traveling, movies, the state of the magical world and everything in between, Roger is extremely closed off with the exception for his favorite bar-keep. While he likes people and does make an honest effort, Roger is a fair-weather friend.
- Escapist: When things get too hard for Roger, he hides away in his flat or goes for a swim. His brain never shuts off, always thinking and analyzing, which means he often has a lot of trouble sleeping and is prone to insomnia, which leads to him to using illicit substances. Push the subject of what is bothering him too much and you will find yourself on the receiving end of a proper chewing out. Verity Davies had only graduated shy of a year in 1975 when she began dating a handsome, slightly older man she met at a pub. Their brief relationship ended when Verity discovered she was pregnant and Cerif offered money to 'fix this problem'. Verity, ever stubborn, instead gave birth to her son, Roger, in Swansea, Wales. She fended off help from her parents and ignored their warnings on the difficulty of being a single parent. Roger was not an easy baby to deal with; from the first day of his birth he seemed to be plagued with constant illnesses: Breathing difficulties, colic for three months, constant ear and sinus infections, and development of asthma all before the age of one. After his appendix ruptured shortly before his second birthday Verity realized she could not provide for her son on her own and abandoned him with her parents in Overton, Wales, where her parents ran a small, in-home veterinary practice. The addition of Roger in their small, two-bedroom home made for a cramped environment, but Pappy Tomas and Granny Mabyn didn’t mind; they loved their grandson.

As he grew, Roger's health stabilized and he turned into a typical little boy running wild with his friends around the countryside or swimming in lakes during the summers. Before his 6th Christmas, Roger's mother returned suddenly, demanding to take her son back. She looked gaunt and sickly and acted very strange. One day while playing alone near the river, she appeared and took Roger for ice cream. He was so happy to see his mother and even more thrilled when she said he would stay with her for a few days. He was instructed to stay in his room - something Roger loathed. There were no books, no toys, and the windows covered with blankets nailed to the walls. He doesn't remember much from this time, though has a vague memory of his mother's voice shouting from beyond the window, her running in and telling him to hide under the bed and seeing several pairs of shoes pacing around the floor followed by a burst of light from himself when a pair of hands attempted to grab him. Soon, he was back with his grandparents, but his freedom was limited to only their yard and only while they were home. Roger turned his attention to the massive collection of books for entertainment, dreaming of far off places he could freely roam.

Roger began spending more time in the hospital again - only this time due to his mother. She was admitted to the long-term care ward after suffering brain damage from a drug overdose. During one visit while left without supervision she attempted to strangle him and assuring her son this was the only way they could truly be together. Roger spent the next few weeks - as well as his 8th birthday - in at a hospital in a neck brace and stent for a fractured larynx, unsure of what was real and what wasn't due to the pain potions. His mother committed suicide a few days after her attack, though he was never told and unable to attend the funeral.

Despite the fact he hadn’t had any major medical illnesses in over two years, medical staff warned Roger's grandparents he was prone to illness, but mentally speaking he seemed very happy, and insatiably curious, if not a little more anxious than other boys his age.


Hogwarts Recovering from the shock of receiving a letter from Hogwarts, soon Roger found himself aboard the Hogwarts Express and while he was relieved to be away from his overprotective grandparents, his first year at Hogwarts was not good as he had hoped; his marks were okay at best and he spent most of his time sulking in the library, feeling awkward and out of his element. Every time he walked into the hall he felt a sense of dread as though the sea of classmates would swallow him up. Year two turned out to be better for him after he tried out for, and accepted onto, Ravenclaw’s house Quidditch team as a reserve chaser. Roger quickly gained new friends, though he was a bit miffed on why people gave him so much attention; it seemed he couldn’t walk down the hallway without someone calling his name and wanting to chat or walk with him. Never one to miss an opportunity for a challenge, Roger practiced faking confidence and natural ease around strangers. Over the years he slowly perfected this mask he could hide behind when in the crowd and his popularity continued to soar. By his 5th year Roger took over the captaining position of the Ravenclaw house Quidditch team.

Despite a few odd occurrences at the school happening due to that Potter kid, his life was pretty good for Roger at Hogwarts: his marks were high, his team fared well during matches, and he had more friends than he knew what to do with; he was quickly gaining reputation as a bit of a heartbreaker though he would rationalize it as an unfortunate side-effect of protecting himself from any outside influences that might harm the fragile person inside. As Roger’s popularity grew his insecurities grew as well. He found solace in his best friends - Cedric Diggory and Cho Chang. The three couldn't have been closer as their own 'trio' of sorts. He wasn't exactly sure when it occurred to him Cho seemed a little...different. How had he never noticed the way her hair would fall over her shoulders or the goofy faces she'd often make? The thing is he started to notice them about Cedric too: the quiet look of pride when he feinted, or how his voice would change to a reassuring tone when addressing younger students. There was something about Cedric - he seemed to glow, as if he had his own magic. Of course he liked girls; who didn't? Roger felt confused and as though his head were spinning - he couldn't confide in Cho as he often would when needing advice about a girl, and he certainly couldn't ask Cedric either. After being confronted on his odd behavior by Cedric, Roger's questions were answered when the two kissed in a hall following an argument in his 6th Year. Soon the kisses turned into secret meetings late at night, usually in the Prefect's Bathroom or Room of Requirement. Cedric confessed that while he thought girls were pretty, he noticed Roger more. Cedric asked him to be patient and keep these feelings quiet while he tried to understand them, to which Roger agreed.

A few months later he watched his best friends whom he harbored deep feelings for both get into a relationship following the Yule Ball. Hiding his disappointment, Roger retaliated by distancing himself from the two and finding comfort in the eager affection of other girls - discarding them as quickly as he acquired. Roger coldly rejected Cedric's attempt at reconciliation many times, with the last telling Cedric he couldn't wait for the Hufflepuff to graduate and be rid of him forever. Cedric died in the Triwizard Tournament shortly after. Not long after he sought out Cho, still feeling deeply for her and in his own twisted way wanted to be close to Cedric again. Their time together was brief and disasters, and only pushed them further apart.
With graduation looming and the wizarding world in chaos, Roger debated heavily on his future. Endlessly fascinated by math and science, he wanted to attend a Muggle University to study physics, but also received a very tempting offer to sign as a reserve from Kenmare. Following the death of his grandmother in his 7th year, Roger decided to take a year off and wanted to escape the country to simply get away.

After Hogwarts
He did not participate in the battle at Hogwarts but instead returned the day after, like so many other former Hogwarts students, to help rebuild. The death and devastation affected Roger more than he cares to admit and ultimately focused his aspirations to pursue work at the Ministry of Magic. Perhaps, with a mind like his, he could do something worthwhile with his life and help those whom he felt he'd failed at the battle. This obsessive thought took root and lead him to focus his sights on the department of mysteries, he was assigned to the Time Department due to his unnatural gift of mathematics. A new obsession took root: If he could simply change the course of time perhaps the only real friend he'd ever had wouldn't have died thinking Roger hated him; perhaps Cho would be with him; perhaps there would be a way to buy more time and save just a few more lives at the Battle of Hogwarts; Perhaps, somehow, his mother wouldn't have struggled so much and, he could save her mind - thus save her. Just small tweaks, he rationalized, that no one would notice. Of course, Roger will never reveal what he is truly working on, as he assists far more prestigious wizards working under the oppressive new government while at work and maintains a healthy social life despite his ever-growing agoraphobia.

It is a pity, however, that mental disorders generally start to solidify in males in their early 20's. The thing Roger feared loomed on the horizon: he inherited his mother's mental disorder and his mind would betray him. As his thoughts raced out of control more and more, he turned to substances that would help quiet this never ending noise. At first he was so sure he could keep things under control and for awhile it worked...until it didn't. Roger wasn't mentioned after his 7th year in the books, so there is nothing to divert. NAME:J2
AGE: Old af
EXPERIENCE: 22 years
CONTACT: Discord
TIME ZONE: CST

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