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I'd be better off dead than lying here alone [27 Mar 2008|10:15pm]
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Has anyone else seen the episode of Buffy where she wakes up in a mental institution and suddenly doesn't know which life is real: the slayer life, or the crazy person who's latched on to these fictional characters she created?

Man, I really wish I could do that. Only, reverse it.

I wish there was a way that I could form my own little reality and live in it. I don't care if in real life I'm strapped to some table getting shot up every so often to stop fits. I wouldn't know it, I would think I was perfectly happy. So who cares, right?

I'm so completely unhappy with everything. I can't remember the last time I felt genuine happiness. Wait.... actually, I do. It was when Laura told me how much she loved VM. So see? My own little virtual world would be perfect, because beyond that, I honestly haven't a clue.

Yeah yeah whatever, this is just me rebelling to try to make myself fail. Congratulations self, you're damn good at it.

I don't care. The only time I feel any piece of contentment is watching my shows, sometimes reading. But either way, it's my own little world, with no cares. Is that why people do drugs? Maybe I should look into that lol.

Ugh I'm such a loser, and I suck.

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