|I think I give up.
||[16 May 2008|01:44am]
I don't see how real love, TRUE LOVE is at all possible. I just don't. I've seen how guys are, because I have guy friends. I know how girls are, because I AM one, and have girl friends.
People get bored. People look at other people, they flirt with other people. They cheat, they fantasize about other guys or girls. What's the point? Seriously.
I know a guy who I'm quite close to. Is romantic with his girlfriend and seems like the honest type. But he would constantly talk about how he wants to break up with her, and he even kissed another girl. Never told his girlfriend.
I keep hoping that I will find somebody, but knowing what I know and how things turn out, how can I EVER really find something? It would never last, it would never be true.
I think I'm meant to never be happy. Veronica Mars had it right.
I'm never getting married. You want an absolute? Well there it is. Veronica Mars, spinster. I mean, what's the point? Sure there's the initial primal drive. Ride it out. Better yet, ignore it. Sooner or later the people you love let you down.