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Shaking on the outside from what I'm feeling inside.... [13 Aug 2008|04:13pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

I really really reeeeeally hate it at Sears. I mean REALLY. A lot of the people are getting to be ass holes, some of them always were, and some I'm just confused by. Tensions are high, hours are low, and people are reaching their breaking points. Even the happiest people there that I have NEVER seen angry are getting unhappy, including myself.

I will say that yes, I do hide myself away when I'm at work. There are very few people that I fit in with there, and for the most part we all have different jobs so I'm rarely in their company. But for the few moments I spend with these people, I feel like it's okay to be myself. But the others, I just don't understand. Ugh. When I'm there I don't talk often, I just do what I'm supposed to and move on. What else WOULD I do? I think a few people take that as a lack of intelligence, or find me to be boring, but whatever. I'm just not happy there and more and more I grow to hate it.

Today I had to fight to keep myself from breaking down into tears. Which actually, was quite a shock because I can't remember the last time I really cried. I rarely do. Even if I'm watching a sad movie or tv show, sometimes I have to fight for tears to come to feel that release. And today I had to fight to keep it in.


I need a new job, but it's so hard..... I'm honestly so close to just going and getting a hosting job, because I know that. The pay will probably be shitty. Oh well. I can't just up and quit Sears like I so badly wanted to today. I have to start paying back student loans in October :(

I feel so broken. I'm at my wits end, as Jafar says :P

I will give you one little ray of sunshine, though. I have to do these fucking PCNs (Price Change Notifications) but all the merchandise in the back is so jam-packed that I can't get to anything. At all. (The back is pretty much the size of a warehouse, if that gives you an idea of how bad it is). So I was complaining about it to Cindy and Marianne. Cindy says "You can't get through that shit! You're not a fucking SPIDER!" That made me laugh a lot. Ahahahaha. I can just see a little black spider crawling over all the merchandise scanning for numbers. Lmao.

Okay I feel better after thinking about that, but really. I've had about all I can take....

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Book 21: It [13 Aug 2008|07:06pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Title: It
Author: Stephen King
Copyright date: 1980
Publisher: Signet
How many pages: 1090
How long it took me to read: A month!!

Category: Horror
I learned about this book from: Who knows, I've known about it foreverrrr.
This book was purchased at: B&N
Other books by this author: The Shining, The Green Mile, The Stand, Misery, Carrie, etc. etc.

Main characters: Mike, Bill, Bev, Eddie, Richie, Stan, Ben
Favorite characters: All of the above, especially Eddie, Richie and Bill
Least favorite Characters: Henry and Tom, ew.
When and Where the story takes place: Derry, Maine; Int 1958 and 1985
Plot in a nutshell: From B&N:

It's a small city, a place as hauntingly familiar as your own hometown. Only in Derry the haunting is real.......

They were seven teenagers when they first stumbled upon the horror. Now they were grown-up men and women who had gone out into the big world to gain success and happiness. But none of them could withstand the force that drew them back to Derry to face the nightmare without an end, and the evil without a name.

What I liked best: This book was AWESOME. It was sooo intricate and so incredibly thought-out with the cycles and tie-ins, and the way the past and present merged together... amazing.
What I liked least: I hate hate haaaate the memory loss thing. I REALLY hate it, but I won't go into much detail about that, in case anyone here wants to read it. I rarely like the way SK ends his stories, but oh well. Also, the losses (I can't handle it, I tell you lol) and the run-on sentences that were hard to follow at times.

What parts could you relate to: Certain thought processes...I'm glad I'm not the only one those thoughts happen to lol; And feelings.
Would this book make a good movie?: It is a movie, but I don't see it being anywhere NEAR as good as its written form. But I'm gonna watch it and see....
Quote from the book that sums it up: Well I don't know about that, but I REALLY liked these 2 quotes:

"...with George gone, there was nothing for him...and all of that had happened at random, for no reason at all. And if you put your ear to that door, you could hear the winds of madness blowing outside." --pg 317

"Not all boats which sail away into darkness never find the sun again, or the hand of another child; if life teaches anything at all, it teaches that there are so many happy endings that the man who believes there is no God needs his rationality called into serious question."

Overall Rating: 4 floating balloons out of 5 >:)

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