Susan (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} _bonetopick) wrote,@ 2014-11-25 21:11:00 |
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| Current mood: |  frustrated |
[Warded private, though family and friends are able to break]
[shaky, tearstains]
We should have gone together. It was just... seeing her, in the walkway like that, just... it was like... it was seeing Jasper all over again. I just...
It's bloody not fair. I never got to know her at home, and when I return to that life at home I'll never have these memories, these pictures, these wonderful mementos of my auntie. I shouldn't have to rely on just pictures and memories now. Why her? She was so good to everyone.
And I just... I'm so tired of being broken. I'm tired of hoping each new day isn't a struggle. I can't sit here and hide anymore. Her memory is too valuable to sit here and be broken anymore. I mean, I know it's not as easy to just decide to not be like this anymore, but... baby steps. I think.
[Family]
I love you all. Let me know if there is anything... anything at all that I can do.