[Ward: Private] Whenever I think about it, I don't know what to feel. The damn psychiatric ward. And I still don't have all the answers. How long am I there? Days? Weeks? Months? Years? How bad is it?
The worst part is that it doesn't even surprise me. I felt it, when I thought everyone was gone. The panic attacks, the nightmares, the mood swings... am I really that dependent on people? Is it so bad that I can't be myself unless I have someone else to keep me afloat?
I don't even know. I don't want to think about it, and I don't have to think about it until I get back home.
Also, Uncle Eddie invited Jasper over for a family dinner. I... don't even know what to think about that. Are we that serious? I guess we are, considering it's losing him that lands me in Mungo's, but... I don't know. There wasn't too much family at home to even consider being nervous about this kind of thing. What if they don't like him? What does it even mean? [/Ward]
I'm sorry for all of those who are missing someone tonight. I've been there. It sucks.