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Today is my eighteenth birthday. I can't help but think about what it would be like back home. Do I spend it in hospital? What is it like? Do I even enjoy it?

It's been a few days now since I had my dream - vision of the future - whatever, and it's harder to go to sleep and stay asleep now, but I have to keep telling myself that I have a good life here. My family's here, and they love me. I have friends here that think I'm important. Jasper's still here. Sure there isn't really much growing I can do career wise, or whatever, but it's a damn better place than back home and I'll take it for as long as I'm allowed to have it.
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Thank you to everyone who sent me gifts and spent time with me today. It means more than you know.