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lily evans-potter (_lillied) wrote,
@ 2017-03-25 12:12:00

[Warded to James and Marlene]

I might be having a meltdown. Send help.

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	marleney 2017-03-25 03:38 pm UTC (link)
	What? Why? Where are you? (Reply to this) (Thread)

_lillied
2017-03-25 04:37 pm UTC (link)

I'm at a muggle clothing store in London and I was trying to find something nice to wear for tomorrow but then I realized...

What if he doesn't even want to see me tomorrow? I haven't been his mother for his whole life - nothing he can remember. What if he goes to someone else, someone more like a mother to him? Who did things I couldn't do because I was fucking dead?

Or if he feels obligated but doesn't actually want to.

I feel robbed. I feel like my son died, not me. Now this stranger who is older than I am is calling me mum because he knows he should and I...

Oh I don't know. I'm being ridiculous. I'm just so angry.

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marleney
2017-03-25 04:44 pm UTC (link)

Okay. Breathe. Go sit in a fitting room. And breathe.

Harry wants to see you, I know he does because he asked what you would like. He doesn't want to get you flowers because he thinks they seem a bit empty, so I suggested he takes you out. He seemed very pleased with the suggestion.

You are fine. And yes, you are ridiculous, but that hasn't really got anything to do with this.

Now. Buy yourself a nice dress.

And then start worrying about how you're going to spend the rest of your life being mistaken for your son's girlfriend when you go out together.

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	_lillied 2017-03-25 05:04 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sitting in the bathroom we're ok there. He does? He really does? Oh thank God. At least there's that. [...] OH MY GOD MARLENE I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT THAT THANKS. ~~he should never~~ ~~i don't know if i can han~~ Thanks. I needed the sort of 'slap in the face' response. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	marleney 2017-03-25 05:08 pm UTC (link)
	What are no-longer-dead friends for, eh? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Lily inert_velocity 2017-03-25 10:54 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sure he feels robbed too, love. But Marlene's right, he wants to see you tomorrow. He's overthinking it. It'll be okay. Besides, every time someone mistakes you for his girlfriend in the future, you'll get to explain to them in detail how you've risen from the dead instead. Should be fun. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lily/James

_lillied
2017-03-26 12:16 am UTC (link)

He probably does, you're right.

I'm just so angry that we were robbed, too.

I carried him in my body for nine months and barely had him out for a year and now he's... he's grown. He's a grown man and I didn't get to know him growing up. I didn't get to see him grow, teach him how to tie his shoes, or ride a bike or argue with him over eating his vetables.

Petunia and Vernon treated him like shit. I bet they didn't praise him for anything, I wonder if it was even them who taught him how to tie his shoes.

It just breaks my heart.

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