The idea of him hurting guts me. And I like it too much when he does things like touch my hand. But that could also be me wanting to be loved. Wanting love. And I already love Sean platonically. I guess maybe it just feels like it could be a very, very short step from the way I love him now to what another kind of love could be. And maybe that's the case between all male/female friendships. I don't know. And I'm not about to experiment on Lennox who is the only other bloke I'm close to.
I just need to figure out a way to put it all out of my head. Which is hard because I need to help Beth through her waiting to hear back from Sean.
No matter what I'm not going to act on anything so the point is pretty much moot. I just needed to say it to someone.