[Private to Self]
If there was ever I time I've experienced the most mixed of emotions, it would probably be now.

I'm more than thrilled that Aunt Cressy is about to have her baby, about to bring a new life into this family. I should be literally over the moon. And I guess in a sense I am.

But it's also so incredibly damn hard. First Belle and Grandpa Harry, now Charity, Dumbledore... he made me smile when few others could... and.. well, Da. It still kills me every time he leaves. It still kills me every time they come back. They'll never know me, unless they come back at some ancient age, which they never seem to do. And why should they? This place is about living out a new life, right? So what would be the point of the magic bringing in people who are closer to the end than anything else? Maybe that's an overly morbid way to look at it, but I don't know what other freaking way to look anymore.

I just... I want to curl up in a ball most days. But I can't, because I have to be together. I have to keep my head up. I have to be strong. But I hate it.

I just feel like I'm never enough. Never who I'm supposed to be for anyone, or that I'm not supposed to be at all.

I hope the Governing Board lets me take over the Posy Inn. I need something... different.

End Private





[Governing Board]
Hi.

I know a lot is going on right now, and I know technically that I'm employed at the cafe, but I was wondering if there was any way I could possibly take over working at the Posy Inn instead? I know Miss Pansy put so much into making it what it is, and she means so much to my Grandpa Draco, so I think I could do a fantastic job and really do the both of them proud. Plus I would hate to see the place sit idle for any amount of time when I could be keeping up with all the work it requires.

Anyway, I'd really appreciate it if you all could consider it.
Thanks,
Polaris Malfoy
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