Mum
They're already taking plenty from us, what's one more worthless thing?
Maybe I'll feel differently later, but right now all I feel is angry. Angry and scared and let down and worthless. I'm a child locked away in a Manor while her friends and family are fighting and getting hurt and dying and there is nothing I can do but make sandwiches and put on movies.
Not that I'm saying I want to be out on the front lines, Merlin knows I don't want to be in a war either, but just... crap mum.
Anyway, it's not like I can cry about it. If I cry, then Myrtle and Dennis and everyone else freaks out and I can't let that happen. So I just have to be together Polaris like nothing is getting to me.