Sirius felt those damn tears threatening again, and Merlin he was tired of crying. He forced them back, focusing on how everything had gone to shit instead.
"You don't understand," he all but snarled. "What if there is no way to fix this! What if I go crazy and hurt Peter next, or James? What if I hurt you Remus?" He couldn't bear it, he just bear it. If he did anything to them, if they ended up like Lily... Oh Merlin, Lily
"I killed Lily!" Even he couldn't tell if he was screaming or sobbing. "I could kill everyone in this whole damn place!"
He launched off the bed, but was immediatly assaulted by dizzyness and sank to the floor.