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Tweak says, "I think I'm ADORABLE!"

Clint Barton (antivillain_) wrote,
@ 2018-07-23 15:02:00

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He sang, "Yodelay-hee, I ain't no untarnished Galahad,
Down from Arcadia like a dream in your head
But gentle lady, lend me the true heart I never had
And I'll stain the lavenders red
With all of this good blood I shed,"
Lancelot said.

. Dave Carter

I do not think they will sing to me.

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

. T. S. Eliot

The joy seclusion's savour gives
He shall discover soon who lives
In open air; and that is why
The wise prefer the open sky.

. Visuddhimagga

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	[childhood] antivillain_ 2018-07-23 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	. Cat-Eye Willie Claims His Lover Dave Carter & Tracy Grammer Drum, Hat, Buddha Video \| Lyrics . (Reply to this)

[roustabout]

antivillain_
2018-07-23 07:05 pm UTC (link)

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I Go Like the Raven
Dave Carter & Tracy Grammer
Drum, Hat, Buddha
Video | Full Lyrics
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When they hear my bowstrings tightnin'
Angels gay, devils frightnin'
C'mon fire and midnight lightnin'
To the garden gancy

Hail the wayward werewolf howlin'
Haints and shades and goblins growlin'
Fiends and demon deevs a-prowlin'
When I break and fancy

Shine the merlin moonbeam eye
Set my dancin' feet to fly
O'er the dark and dervish sky
I go like the raven

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	[fallen idols] antivillain_ 2018-07-23 07:06 pm UTC (link)
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[S.H.I.E.L.D.]

antivillain_
2018-07-23 07:06 pm UTC (link)

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Gotta Knock a Little Harder
Yoko Kanno, Mai Yamane
Cowboy Bebop
Video | Lyrics
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What survival mechanisms that had taken him through childhood (w. abandoning mother, abusive father, foster care, running away) and adolescence (w. carny life, idol worship of Swordsman and Trick Shot, the price of their training: indoctrination to their world of petty crime and gang warfare)—Fury made clear the same mechanisms would no longer serve him in training for S.H.I.E.L.D. They had to be deconstructed, mostly shed. What kernels of strength they provided had to be come by and focused down other avenues.

Not to mention his having to tackle things he'd never had any hope of reaching, or had actively rejected, before. Study. Expand the mind. Become knowledgeable in general and in a host of eye-blurring specifics. Relearn interdependence. Cooperation. How to follow without abdicating all responsibility and judgment. How to be healthily skeptical. And how to trust. If any of it had ever come naturally to him, he'd spent a long time teaching himself the opposite. Now he had to unlearn the unlearning. The physical demands of training were nothing. It was the intellectual and psychological demands that nearly killed him.

But every time he hit a wall, he refused to stop until he'd cracked through it. Using, as it often felt as if literally, his own skull as a battering ram.

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	[Maria] antivillain_ 2018-07-23 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	. Bottle It Up Sara Bareilles Between the Lines Video \| Lyrics . Talented enough kid. Time to start acting like a man. And not your current idea, Barton, C., of what that means. Hill (for S.H.I.E.L.D. and humanity) is unimpressed. (Reply to this)

	[partner] antivillain_ 2018-07-23 07:07 pm UTC (link)
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