Wow there's such a difference between the two of them especially since Joey looks so massive now, he makes all of you guys look like shorties. It's okay if you can't move on just yet. He means a lot to you and it's hard to forget that sometimes no matter what has happened. Just remember to be careful if he tries anything with you again because you know that won't help you move on or feel better about yourself. You've got to vent and express your feelings. Maybe when you're ready you can write a goodbye letter to him like you did with Eric. That may help a bit...