InsaneJournal

least noticeable difference

lately, i've been having a lot of these moments of crushing loneliness.  it's particularly strange since i don't really think anything is different.  i'd like to say that, oh, wow, i used to have all these people i talked to on AIM all the time, or hey, my phone used to ring off the hook with calls from old friends, but really i'm not sure there's been any noticeable decline in the frequency with which people IM or call me.
i'm bored.  in the end, i really think that might be the key thing.  if i had more to do (or rather, more to do that held my interest), i wouldn't be sitting here thinking about how i don't really have anyone to talk to, which really shouldn't be a big fucking surprise at 11:45 on a weeknight.
does this mean i should find a more challenging career?  does it mean i should take on more extras to keep myself busier?  does it mean i just need to find some people or hobbies or something to fill some more of this time and to keep me interested and challenged?  i like the idea of that last one better than the other two; i'm just not sure what to do with it.

oh, and on a side note, if you're reading this and you regularly read my journal and you aren't on my friends list, you might want to add me (this means if you don't have an IJ account, you should create one), and comment here and chances are i'll add you. the thing is, while i do post a lot of stuff publicly, there is also a bunch of stuff i'll only talk about in a friends-only entry, so the public view is only half the story...