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Tweak says, "no fighting in the war room!"

Jess Van der berg (insolentia_) wrote,
@ 2016-05-24 01:47:00

Current mood:

crappy

[No Baddies - Away from Nicholas]

i had to watch my tortured boyfriend scream at no less than three doctors today because he just wants to eat and he can't yet. i mean they're giving him that sugar water crap, but it's just making him hungry and i can't help and i had to leave because i can't sit there and watch. pregnancy hormones don't help either, because i keep bursting into tears and then he tries to make me feel better and that shouldn't be his job but he's just so wonderful-

i'm so relieved he's back, but i guess i have to keep reminding myself that doesn't mean everything is suddenly okay because it's not. it is so fucking far from okay. i can't believe what was done to my sweet nicky. not to mention looking at him is just making me think of what happened to joey-

whatever, cheer me up. suggest names for my son!

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jdelacroix
2016-05-23 02:09 pm UTC (link)

I just have to keep reminding myself that they know what they're doing, and if this is the best course of action for him, then we should just let them do it. (That doesn't mean I don't want to just crack and go get him some food, though. Because I do.)

[JJ]
It's so not OK. It's fucking not. And every time I look at him, I get flashbacks to Jay lying in a hospital bed, looking like he might snap in half. I know they didn't get there the same way, but it still makes me feel like I swallowed my heart and I'll throw it back up.

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	insolentia_ 2016-05-23 02:18 pm UTC (link)
	i know and i will crack and get him food which is why i am just going to chill at home today. i know it could hurt him or worse if they don't do this right now but i hate it. [Jesse] oh, babe, i know. i keep thinking about that too and it's horrible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2016-05-23 02:30 pm UTC (link)
	It's alright, cher. I'll sit with him for a while, until you feel like you can come back. [JJ] One of the many reasons I cook so much goddamn food. And freak out a little every time someone says they haven't eaten all day. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	insolentia_ 2016-05-23 02:41 pm UTC (link)
	i'll try again tomorrow. i just...it's all so horrible. i'm sorry i'm leaving you to take care of it. [Jesse] i don't blame you at all. and it's not like adrian and isaiah are brilliant at taking care of themselves either. is that a delacroix thing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2016-05-23 02:46 pm UTC (link)
	It's alright. I'll be here when you want to try again. [JJ] Pretty much. Probably tied into chronically low self-worth, courtesy of dear departed dad. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	insolentia_ 2016-05-23 02:56 pm UTC (link)
	you are the best. [Jesse] i thought about that after i hit enter. sorry, love. for what it's worth, i think you're amazing. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	formnumberfour 2016-05-23 02:10 pm UTC (link)
	Wait, wait, tortured boyfriend? Liebling, what happened? (Reply to this) (Thread)

Diana

insolentia_
2016-05-23 02:21 pm UTC (link)

the fucking antichrist abducted nicky and starved him for a month. so now he can't eat solid food because of whatever the fuck refeeding syndrome is so they are gradually introducing nutrients and then like...goo next week and more goo the week after that so it's still torture even though he's safe which is the fucking worst and hey i can't even get high to ignore it for a few hours because i decided getting pregnant in a world where lucifer kidnaps and rapes your brother and his fetid offspring starves your boyfriend for an entire month is apparently a good fucking idea!

...sorry. i'm angry.

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formnumberfour
2016-05-23 02:27 pm UTC (link)

I don't think anyone would blame you in the slightest for being angry. Beings like him are why I refuse to have dealings with Christians. We have more of a moral code than they do, and we're illegal.

So here's the thing, liebling. I told you once that hunting Christians was fun for us. I meant that. Perhaps Victor and I can go and...show him the error of his ways. 2/3 of your triad work for us and are under our protection, so it's no trouble at all to throw in the third.

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	Diana insolentia_ 2016-05-23 02:29 pm UTC (link)
	...wait, are you sure? you don't have to do that for us. i mean- i couldn't ask you to do that if you don't want to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JJ formnumberfour 2016-05-23 02:32 pm UTC (link)
	Considering Victor just threw his glass into a wall, I'm pretty sure it's no trouble, for either of us. Christians think they're the biggest bullies on the playground, I have yet to meet one worth more than five minutes of my time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Diana insolentia_ 2016-05-23 02:42 pm UTC (link)
	oh sweet victor. fuck it, can i come over there just to hang out tonight? revenge can start tomorrow, right? because goddamn i want revenge. they're the worst. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JJ formnumberfour 2016-05-23 02:47 pm UTC (link)
	He's ranting a bit, something about flames. Of course you can. We'll make you a mocktail, and tomorrow we can talk about revenge. You'll have it, liebling. We swear it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Diana insolentia_ 2016-05-23 02:57 pm UTC (link)
	hey, i won't complain about flames. you are amazing. thank you so much. i'll be there soon. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	JJ aspectabund 2016-05-23 03:42 pm UTC (link)
	So I know we haven't really spent much time together, but Jayden is dear to Jamie and Roxanna, and he talks about all of you all of the time. If you guys need anything, hell, even if you don't feel like making dinner or you want some company or something, give me a call. [Number] (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Maddy insolentia_ 2016-05-23 03:53 pm UTC (link)
	you kemps are the fucking nicest. thomas and lena have already sent over like three lasagnas. and if i understand correctly, thomas is still healing from a car accident. thank you so much. that means the world to me, thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JJ aspectabund 2016-05-23 05:31 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, Tommy's still recovering. The accident was pretty bad. And we try our best, because people shouldn't have to go through this shit by themselves. You're welcome. And I mean it, just give me a ring or a text or whatever. I could bring my daughter Diana along as well, she loves people. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maddy insolentia_ 2016-05-23 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	i am really glad to know people like you. where i grew up no one did anything for anyone and any charity people did was just to look good. we should have you and my brother and his family over at the same time so there can be a baby playdate! (Reply to this) (Parent)