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[24 Jul 2008|12:20am] |
I can't help but be just a little bit aggravated the past week. Why? Because I'm an actress, I'm not allowed to be myself around a friend. Because it doesn't look good for him in public. Who the fuck is going to sit there and not vote for someone, cause he flirts. Because he's a damn good friend who let's his friends stay over when they are visiting and need a friend. I'm not going to not vote for someone because they are single and flirt. I've been asked about why I was staying at Evan's place for what.. two weeks. I told them the truth, ``Evan is a dear friend to me. I went to visit him and my friends, to have a vacation and he rather me stay there then in a damn hotel.``
It just pisses me off. I shouldn't let things get me this pissed off but ... I like Evan. Pretty much every girl that cross' his path will like him. A few nights before I left to come back, I kissed him on my own free will. I wanted to know if I was still desired because I hadn't felt like I was for a long time. I was to Evan. He kissed me, actually kissed me. It wasn't a pitty kiss or anything. I liked it. We snuggled all night, we made a deal that when my schedule clears again.. I'll come back up and we have a few days of wearing each other out. But after he told me that he can no longer be seen with me... Part of me wants nothing to do with him now.
If there was going to be any damage to us hanging out, it's already done. People already know we know each other, that I stayed at his place for so long. It just really... uuuuggggghhhh!
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