InsaneJournal

XVIII; Private [abby & sammy only]
maybe i should go straight lesbian. that way i don't have to worry about liking a guy and end up getting rejected.

I went over his apartment the other night because he said he was drinking, i wanted to make sure he was ok. the door was open and i walked in, he was in bed sleeping and when i went to write him a note i woke him up. the same thing that happens every time we are together happened. we end up in bed, kissing and what not and i get my clothes half way off... he stops. he apologizes to me for trying not to lead me on and tells me he likes sammy.

so what, all the other times we laid in bed and held each other. the times we made out, he was drunk? no, he wasn't. the other night i don't think he was that drunk. i don't know what it is. i try and take things slow, just be friends and see where it goes... i'm doing something wrong. i go after something i want, i'm doing something wrong. what the hell am i suppose to do?


[ooc: i had a death in the family, so i'll be away for a couple of days.]