XXIV; .friends only.
Right now everyone is up at the hospital visting my dad, even though not all of them can go into ICU. Right now I'm at my mom's house sitting in the living room waiting for Rob to call me. He said he would after he got out of the gym. Everyone is wanting to come and stay with me and I told them they didn't have to. Though I want Sammy here. Rob has stayed over a couple of times, but he was WWE and so he's been all over the US. There's nothing for anyone to do, not for my dad or me.. or anyone. Unless someone is able to put a hand on him and heal him. My father has coded twice and I haven't seen him. Not even when I first got up here. I'm not strong like my mom, I know if I see him. See him hooked up to those machines and all, I won't be able to handle it. I'll freak out like I did when Shannon died.

I did write him note and my mom gave it to him. I've talked to him on the phone, but he can't talk back cause of the tube in his throat and all the other stuff hooked up to him.

Sammy... I need you.


.Private.

Dear daddy,
I'm sorry I haven't been in to see you, but I hope you understand I can't handle walking in and seeing you hooked up to all the things mom says they have you hooked up to. But I want you to know I love you and if something does happen to you, which I'm praying like hell it doesn't.. I don't want my last image of you alive in a hospital room hooked up to machines and wires and tubes all over you. I want my last image of you to be of you smiling and your arm's wrapped around me. But I know you'll make it through, you always make it through everything. Your a strong man, stronger then Rob.. but don't tell him that I said that.

I'm doing ok, just waiting to hear when your coming home. I'll make you your favorite cake when you get out. White cake with strawberries and whip cream. Though your doctor will probably tell you that you can't eat stuff like that. But it'll be our little secret. I'll have to hide it from Sammy because she'll devour it. She say's hello and to hurry up and get your boney butt better so you and her can play pool. Rob also says hello and for you to get better. He needs someone to work out with and won't complain.

Hurry up and get better dad... I miss you and love you. I'll be waiting for you by the swing.


Love your key lime pie.