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Phantom ([info]mcr_) wrote,
@ 2025-04-24 20:27:00

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Ryan and Mya. SCENE.
The kids were finally out. The house had gone still—just the occasional creak of settling wood and the low murmur of the ocean in the distance. A soft country record played on the patio speaker, spinning something intimate and stripped down, the kind of song that clung to the night air.

Ryan stepped out onto the patio with a fresh drink in hand, hoodie sleeves pushed to his elbows, hair still slightly damp. The lines of his face softened under the glow of the string lights overhead. He looked every bit the off-duty movie star—relaxed, grounded, barefoot.

He settled into the chair beside her with a quiet sigh, stretching his legs and letting his gaze drift toward her. Mya looked completely at ease. Or maybe she wanted to look that way. Her long legs were curled under her, glass in hand, wearing one of his old flight school sweatshirts and no makeup. She looked better than she did on any red carpet—and he’d seen her on plenty.

Ryan lifted his glass toward her, a small toast with a wry smile—low effort but sincere.

His eyes flicked toward the speaker. It was one of her songs playing. One of the older ones, a little raw, a little too close to the bone. He didn’t say anything, but the corner of his mouth twitched, amused. Curious.

He leaned back and let the quiet roll for a beat. The night was warm, familiar. The kind of night that made things feel simpler than they actually were.

Eventually, he turned to her, expression unreadable but thoughtful. His voice was soft when he spoke—low, even, almost like he didn’t want to wake the peace that had finally settled.

No pressure. No heat. Just Ryan, stripped back from the movie star sheen, Top Gun pilot past, or all the questions they’d tried to ignore lately.

Just her husband.

And maybe… her friend.


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[info]amyaa
2025-04-25 01:43 am UTC (link)
Mya had no idea what they were anymore. There were so many rumors about him and the little skank. She was tired of hearing it. Tired of him not confirming or denying it. There were so many things she had grown tired of. He went on trips with Caden without even asking if she wanted to go. Half the time she didn't hear about it until they were gone.

Maybe she was being dramatic. Maybe she wasn't but she still left like there was some truth to the shit about the whore with fake tits and that was why she had pulled away so much. She was still very much in love with her husband. Did she go and hang out with Anthony's brother? Yeah, did they ever do anything? No. They confided in each other about their spouses whom they both felt like did not love them anymore.

Mya was out on the back deck of their home, watching the ocean waves the moon hitting the them. When he came out she looked up at him. "I didn't know you were home. I thought you were still doing stuff for whatever." she looked at him and then back out at the ocean. "The kids are with your mom and dad. "I have been having them stay there, I am not in the best mental state so it's best for them right now. I don't want them to see mom depressed and the bed for days at a time."

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[info]mcr_
2025-04-25 02:27 am UTC (link)
Ryan paused in the doorway, her words landing harder than anything he’d prepared for. He hadn’t even sat down yet, and already the weight of it was heavy in the air—no mask, no spin, just truth laid bare in the moonlight.

He ran a hand through his hair, the guilt already setting in. There was no camera here, no director to call cut. Just her. His wife. Looking like the same girl he used to follow around, only now her eyes didn’t shine the same when they met his.

“I didn’t know,” he said quietly, his voice lower than usual, the wind nearly stealing the words. He stepped onto the deck fully now, setting his glass down on the table without taking a sip. His movements were careful and almost unsure for once. That didn’t happen often with him.

He looked out at the waves, trying to find words that didn’t sound like excuses. “I should’ve been here. Or at least asked. About the trips. About... all of it.” He turned slightly toward her then, hands in the front pocket of his hoodie, jaw working as he forced himself to say the part that had been hanging in the air for too long.

“And there’s nothing going on with her,” he added, voice firm, not defensive, just real. “Not a damn thing. I should’ve said it. Loudly. The first time you heard it. And the second. And every time after.” He let out a breath, then looked at her fully, finally.

“I hate that you thought I wouldn’t care enough to say it. That I let you sit with that alone.” His fingers tapped against his palm, a nervous habit leftover from flight school that still popped up when things felt unsteady.

The next words sat on the edge of his tongue, heavy, honest, a little scared.“I still love you. I don’t know what we’re doing, but that part? That hasn’t changed.”he hesitated for a second longer before sitting across from her, giving her space but not walking away. “I should’ve fought harder for us,” he admitted. “And I’m still here. If you want me to fight now.”

His gaze dropped to her hands, then back to the horizon. “I’m not going anywhere. Unless you tell me to.”

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[info]amyaa
2025-04-25 03:02 am UTC (link)
She listened to all his words very carefully and watched all of his moves very carefully. She wasn't mad anymore. She was just hurt. She honestly wished he had never gotten into this acting thing, that he had stayed in the military for a few more years then retired, but she would never say that out loud.

"You would have known if you were home." she spoke softly with her knees tucked up to her chest. She was tired, wore down mentally and physically. She had bipolar, anxiety, was recently diagnosed with BPD, and had major depressive disorder. Ryan knew all of that though. "I will never say you shouldn't go on trips with your brother, ever. I just wish you two would have thought of me and Griffin. Of your children too." she tucked hair behind her ear.

Looking over at him she bit over her lip. "Good, I am glad, But, I wish you had come out and said that. Publicly. And I wish you had told her to fuck off with that fake ass shit for the PR shit too. That really hurt and confused our children. I still love you too, Ryan. I don't want you to leave. I don't want to leave you. I don't want a divorce, but lines are going to be drawn with your roles from now on. Lines will be drawn with the PR stunts. Lines will be drawn with the way you act with your female leads. I am serious. This was not an issue with Twisters." she looked at him with all the hurt in her eyes. "I will not stand for this again. You will address rumors the minute they happen publicly and with me."

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[info]mcr_
2025-04-25 03:43 am UTC (link)
Ryan didn’t move at first. He sat there on the edge of the patio chair, her words sinking in deeper than he expected. The quiet was different now—not the comfortable kind they used to fall into, but something dense and sharp, like walking barefoot through glass. Every part of her hurt, and he could see it. Not just in her words, but in the way she tucked her knees up, in the way her voice cracked when she said “our children.”

He hated how familiar her sadness had become. Hated that it had taken this long for him to really hear it. “I know,” he said softly.

He leaned forward, forearms on his thighs, hands clasped tight—knuckles white. The calm, composed Navy pilot thing? Gone. He looked like a man finally owning the mess he helped make.

“You’re right. About all of it. I should’ve handled it differently. The trips. The silence. The PR shit.” He exhaled, shaking his head slightly. “I let them spin a story I didn’t shut down. And you got caught in the crossfire. Again. He looked over at her, not flinching from the weight in her eyes.

“There’s not a part of me that wants out of this,” he said. “And yeah—there are gonna be lines. I’ll draw them with you. Not after the fact. Not when it’s too late. But now.” He leaned back, glancing up at the stars for a second before meeting her gaze again.

“I don’t want our kids confused. I don’t want you confused. And I sure as hell don’t want to be the guy who makes the woman he loves question where she stands.” There was a pause.

“I’ll handle the rumors. I’ll talk to the studio, the publicist, whoever I need to. And next time something like this starts—I shut it down. Publicly. First thing.”

He reached out gently, resting his hand against the edge of her foot where it peeked out from the blanket.

“I don’t want to just say the right things anymore, Mya. I want to do them.” His voice softened, the fight dropping to something tender. Honest.

“I love you. I still see you. Even when I’ve been too wrapped up in everything else to act like it. And I’m sorry.”

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[info]amyaa
2025-04-25 04:40 am UTC (link)
She wasn't try to make him feel bad and she wasn't trying to be cold or mean but she was tired of holding it all in and tired of making poor Bryan listen to it all. Or Griffin heard it all. Sure, her psychiatrist heard it all and she was heavily medicated now but, she was tired of faking it til she made it with him.

She kept her gaze toward his and before she could stop the words coming out of her mouth, she came out. "I honestly would be happy if you went back to doing what you did and did not do the famous shit anymore. But, I am not going to make you pick not doing what you love. I am not that woman or that wife. So, yes, please, sit with your team and make damn sure they know that you are a married woman and this shit is NOT flying. They know you are married, they better know that your wife will not allow it."

When he rested his hand on her foot she looked over at him and nodded, "Then lets start doing the right thing, because I can't take anymore of this. We need to be us again Ryan. I honestly just want to move back to Nebraska with you and the kids. Life is simpler there. None of this fucking hustle, bustle and Hollwood bullshit." She knew he wouldn't but, she was saying what she thought. "My dad is dating fucking Brooke Williamson, she is closer to my age. It is disgusting. I have known it for a long time, but they finally fucking admitted it. So that is just the cherry on top of it all"

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[info]mcr_
2025-04-25 07:58 pm UTC (link)
Ryan listened, really listened this time.Every word she said hit him square in the gut—no Hollywood polish, no careful rehearsed answers. Just her. Raw and tired and honest. And maybe for the first time in too damn long, he wasn’t hearing her through the noise of everything else. He was just... hearing her.

When she said she wished he’d walk away from it all—the fame, the chaos—his chest tightened. Not because he was angry. Not because he was hurt. But because deep down? A part of him wanted it too.
He thumbed lightly across her ankle, grounding himself, grounding them, before answering.“I miss it too,” he said, voice low and steady. “The quiet. The normal. Not having to wonder if someone’s taking pictures of us every time we go get ice cream.” He shifted in his seat, leaning a little closer now, not crowding her, but letting her feel him there.“I don’t need Hollywood, Mya. I like the work. I’m good at it. But I don’t need it the way I need you. And the kids. And... whatever the hell version of sanity we had before all this shit started.” He let out a slow breath, scrubbing a hand over his jaw. He looked tired too—older in the low light, but in a way that matched her tired, not like he was running from it.

“I’ll talk to my team. I’ll draw the lines. And if they don’t like it, they can find somebody else to make their stupid headlines.” He shook his head slightly, a hint of a bitter smile crossing his mouth. “As for your dad and Brooke... Jesus.” He let out a short laugh, not because it was funny, but because sometimes the absurdity of life didn’t give you much choice. “That’s messed up, babe. And I’m sorry you even have to deal with that bullshit on top of everything else.” Ryan leaned his elbows onto his knees again, looking straight at her, no distance between what he said and what he meant. “We will find our way back to us, Mya. If Nebraska’s what you want... hell, I’ll go. I’ll flip burgers if it means we’re good again.” He let the words hang there, meaning every single one of them, before adding quieter, almost like a vow: “I just want to be where you are.”

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[info]amyaa
2025-04-25 09:24 pm UTC (link)
When he listened she was glad that he finally actually listened to her and it didn't just go in one ear and out the other. Usually that was all it had done, much like a child- in one ear and right out the other. But he was actually listening to her.

A tiny part of her was mad. She was mad because she gave it all away. She quit the music scene for her family. For him. For her kids. She gave it all up in an instant so they could be normal again. And then, just like that, all of a sudden he was in the movies because of Top Gun.

"It just all blew up so fast, and I just want things to be the way it used to be. I miss us, I miss the way we were. We were just getting our marriage back to the way it should be." she nodded. "You are good at it, you are very good at it. I just wish it did not come with all of this, and all of these other women being in your life." she was being brutally honest but, she never felt pretty enough, her entire life. Griffin was her best friend, and she always felt ugly standing next to her and now? Now she had to be next to all these fucking co-stars that looked like Sydney goddamn Sweeny. She just wanted it to be normal again.

She looked at him when he looked at her with no distance between them, "You do NOT need to flip burgers babe. That is not it at all." she sighed. "I just hat California now. I miss the quiet of home. Kansas City is even home to me. I was there for years. I dunno I am just tired of this place." she nodded looking into his eyes. "And I you."

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[info]mcr_
2025-04-26 12:59 am UTC (link)
“I miss us too, Mya,” he said, the honesty cutting right through the calm he usually wore. “I miss waking up without a million people in our business. I miss you being able to breathe without a headline getting in the way.”

He ran a hand through his hair, the motion tense, frustrated, but not with her. “I’m not gonna lie to you. I love acting. I don’t want to give it up. It makes me feel alive in a way I didn’t even know I needed after the Navy.” He looked at her then really looked, like if he could hold her together with just his stare, he would. “But I don’t need Hollywood. I don’t need this,” he said, gesturing vaguely to the palm trees and city skyline just barely visible in the distance.

“I don’t want you miserable here. I don’t want the kids growing up thinking this... hustle, bullshit, fake smile life is what they’re supposed to chase.” He leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, closer to her now, the space between them practically buzzing with the tension of everything unsaid. “What if we find something in between?” he asked, voice a little rough around the edges. “What if we move to New York?” He saw the flicker of surprise in her eyes, but he pushed through it. “I can still act. I can still work. Theater, smaller films, voiceover work—hell, I don’t care. It’s not about being famous. It’s about doing the thing I love and being able to come home to you. To them. Without feeling like I’m losing pieces of myself every time we step outside.”

He squeezed her ankle gently again. “We could have a backyard. A real neighborhood. You could sing if you wanted to. Hell, I miss hearing you sing.” He shrugged lightly, but his eyes never wavered from hers. “I’m not trying to slap a Band-Aid on this, baby. I’m trying to build something better with you. Something we don’t hate waking up to every day.”

His voice softened even more. “I’m willing to meet you halfway. Hell, I’ll meet you more than halfway if it means we figure this out together.”

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