[Talking about this also makes him want to die a little, but well. That much is true, it feels fair enough.]
[...] I-- I've been with... Not many, really. Just. Just didn't feel right.
This [gestures towards you] ... It's the first time, since-- [His wife. Don't make him say the name now.] [Runs a hand over his face, struggling with what he's said already.]