"it was a lot easier before these guys, but I was also a lot more stupid." the days of taking unnecessary risks that could very well get him killed were over, so was his time with the IST. It wasn't easy to walk away, but this what what he had to do for his boys. They meant the world to him and he had to protect them first no matter what. "I wouldn't cancel. There's only a handful of people left that can put up with my sassy ass. Can't risk losing more friends.besides, your girl is their best friend"