||[19 Mar 2008|10:27pm]
So right now I have to force myself to write. Why? I don't know. Everything seems harder lately. Anything worth caring about does, at least.
Need to clean my room, but why bother? Have an assignment to do, eh, I'll get to it later. Could go to the gym, really don't feel like it. It sucks. Just feels like I've given up on everything and nothing sounds good.
I don't understand why this happens. It's like, I fix everything, then one day I wake up and forget to be better and all the progress I've made has wiped clean. And I don't remember how to get back to normal again.
Me, I'm a wimp. Everything scares me. To the point of, I don't want to try. That might be part of why I've given up. I don't think I can handle it, and to top that off, I don't think I'm even capable of doing it.
I have tons of bills, and soon I'll have to pay tuition and the emergency room bill. It's enough to send me into a panic attack. I hate being this way.
I don't really want to talk about it anymore here. Again, there's no point to it :P
On the plus side, my teacher liked the pictures I took. The link to my favorite ones is posted in a previous entry if you wanna look.
K done now :P