I am beyond exhausted right now. I swear, I'm one...step or whatever, away from sleepwalking. Ughhhh. My friend John is helping us to fix the desktop. I've been sitting here for 4 hours, it's 2 am, and I have to be up at 7. There's no way. I think I'm gonna just call off. I've been extremely tired since... Thursday or Friday, I think, and I don't trust myself to drive or work this way. I just want to pass out. And this stupid file is only 50% done downloading.

I'm just writing because I need a distraction to keep me from passing out. I'm gonna have to tell him that htis is the last hting that I can do.

Oh I'm also writing b/c I want to know how incohereint I am. I'm not even sure if that's the right word atm. Yeah I see those spelling errors but I don't care. I want to read prozac nation ut it's hard enough to follow as it is. In this state? Good luck. At least I only have less than 100 psg to go. Then I'm readin the next gossip girla nd then probably zombie blondes. Hopefully by then I'll be able to get New Moon from somebody.

SHITE I forget that Bridget wants bueatu and the beast. I was gonna bring it up there tomorrow. Boo. How silly that I want to go to work simply to deliver a dvd. I'll text her and say I'll bring it tomorrow. I mean wednesday' TOmorrow's tomorrow.

Wow I type like shit when I'm tired. It's a good thing I've decided not to drive :P

I'm so tired. I have to work tomorrow but I don't want to sleep. I want to read, and I want to watch my new favorite station, "Investigation Discovery". It is soooo good. All about FBI cases, and investigations, andddd crazy psycho killers and stuff. Although, watching this station a lot, and reading Stephen King is fucking with my head. I've been having weird dreams. Well... I always have weird dreams, but these are weird in a creepy sense.

You know the girl in "The Ring"? I can't remember her name... Samara or whatever. I had a dream that I woke up and she was in my room. But... not like, crawling out of the tv. She was standing facing the corner of my room, back to my bed, and she was in that white nightgown and her hair was all down and in her face. Then I ran out of my room to my nephew's room and slept in there with him, haha. There was more to the dream than that, but I can't remember it clearly enough :/

I'm reading "It". That book is over 1000 pages long!! Holy shit! I'm like... 200 pages in I think. Probably a little bit more. The last part I read scared the shit out of me and I had to sleep with the tv on, haha. I was hoping to be done with this book before we went camping, but thaaaaat's not gonna happen. Oh well. I'll just scare the shit out of myself while sleeping out doors. No bid deal, right? Haaaaa. At least I didn't choose to read "The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon" while camping. Then I'd be fucked. :)

Oh shit son, so today.... I printed my portfolio. It scares the crap out of me, because it means now it's time to start the job hunt. I mean, I want out of Sears, no doubt. I hate it there now. The only thing I like about it is a handful of people that I work with. But I'm soooo scared to start applying places. I'm looking into publishing houses mostly. I really want to make book covers. I've made 6 for assignments, so.... yay! I love it. I want to do it. I'm looking in Michigan and in Texas. I'm scared scared scared scared. I really think I'm gonna end up in Texas. But I don't want to stay long. Too far away from family. Ugh.

My sister had her check-up today! Cancer-free!! Yayyyy!! We were all so happy. Her next check-up is in October. Hopefully it'll all still be good. It was funny, she came out and was laughing because the doctor looked in her no-no area, and was like "It looks beautiful!" He meant of course, that she was clean and good, nothing there. But she kept walking around saying "I have a pretty pussy!" Hahahahha it was funny. I love my family.

I came in here fully intent on writing an actually entry. But ughhh it's so fucking hot. Like, sweat down my back and in-between the boobage hot. And of course, the laptop is getting warm, so that's not helping things much. So therefore I won't be talking or typing about all the things I had wanted to, because if I'm in here any longer I think I might hurl due to the heat.

I will say though, that I'm reading Stephen King's "It" and holy SHIT that book is 1078 pages long!!!!! WTF!! I had better read a lot because if I take too long I'll get bored. Not cuz of the story, but because if I take too long reading something I get tired of it and want to be done. Mehhhhhh.

Also. Doctor Horrible, oooommmggggg. Joss is a fucking genius, I love him, I neeeeeeeeeeeed to work with that guy, how do I do it?!??! I would sing the musicals praises right now but it's way too hot so now I must go. Bah.

So has anyone else noticed that the less and less time you spend learning, obviously the less you know, but the more you forget?

I used to be so good with grammar, and better at art recognition and stuff. Not anymore! Today on Jeopardy they showed a painting that I KNOW I've studied and asked a question about it and I couldn't for the life of me remember the answer. Of course no one on the show got it right either, but still.

I LIKE knowing stuff. I like to be educated, I like learning, and if the subject is right, I even like studying!

So you can imagine my horror when I constantly screw up their/there/they're and know/no/now and so on. Granted it's mostly typing errors and that's pretty easy to do. But it bothers me.

So today I bought this book called "The Intellectual Devotion". On the cover it says "Revive Your Mind, Complete Your Education, and Roam Confidently with the Cultured Class". Everyday you read something about a certain subject. On Mondays you learn about History, Tuesdays it's Literature, Wednesday it's Visual Arts, Thursday it's Science, Friday it's Music, on Saturday you read about Philosophy, and on Sunday, appropriately enough, Religion.

I'm excited for this, except for the fact that I don't learn by reading, I learn by doing. I considered maybe writing a blurb about what I read each day, maybe even something narrative, but idk... maybe I'll just read. My other issue is that I'm currently reading "I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have to Kill You". I started yesterday and I'm already half-way through, which shows you it's an easy read and one that I find hard to put down. Also, it's hard for me to juggle multiple projects.

Oh listen to me making all of these excuses....I should just do it, right? Read an effing page a day, and write a lil somethin-somethin' about it, eh? I should. I will. And today is Monday which means I have to start today or wait a week. I really don't think I have the patience to wait a week lol.

So the question remains.... do I read "I'd Tell You" first, or the Devotional? I think I'll call it the ID from now on :D

Hehe.... well what to do what to do.....