WTF?! I think Firefox is looney. The way my journal looks keeps changing. First, the colors changed. And today, the layout is all screwy. It's rather annoying. I don't have the energy or patience to try to fix it today though.

My abs and arms hurt like a bitch. Yesterday was my first day back at the gym. It's a good thing I didn't go for a full body work-out, or I wouldn't be able to get out of bed lol. But that's okay, it's a good pain.

I called off work today because I was sooooo exhausted that I couldn't function. When I finally woke up at 4 pm, I felt like shit, really hot and groggy and dizzy. I stayed up though. Which I'm glad I did cuz I would feel even worse tomorrow. Hopefully that was enough catch-up for me. Meh.

OMG so my Desktop (which I now call Deskie, and my Laptop, Lappie) was dead for a while there. Best Buy wanted $500 to fix the damn thing. My friend fixed it for me!!! ALLLLLL over the Internet, and I had to help. But it's alive and well again!!! OMG OMG OMG. I need to send him a cookie, for real :) Or get in touch with his gf (my former bff) to see where he'd like a gift card to. I don't think I'll be able to get that info myself without drawing suspicion... hmmmm. Yep, I just e-mailed Carol. BOOYAH.

EDIT: // How awesome am I?! I FIXED MY LAYOUT!!! Woo woo!

I am beyond exhausted right now. I swear, I'm one...step or whatever, away from sleepwalking. Ughhhh. My friend John is helping us to fix the desktop. I've been sitting here for 4 hours, it's 2 am, and I have to be up at 7. There's no way. I think I'm gonna just call off. I've been extremely tired since... Thursday or Friday, I think, and I don't trust myself to drive or work this way. I just want to pass out. And this stupid file is only 50% done downloading.

I'm just writing because I need a distraction to keep me from passing out. I'm gonna have to tell him that htis is the last hting that I can do.

Oh I'm also writing b/c I want to know how incohereint I am. I'm not even sure if that's the right word atm. Yeah I see those spelling errors but I don't care. I want to read prozac nation ut it's hard enough to follow as it is. In this state? Good luck. At least I only have less than 100 psg to go. Then I'm readin the next gossip girla nd then probably zombie blondes. Hopefully by then I'll be able to get New Moon from somebody.

SHITE I forget that Bridget wants bueatu and the beast. I was gonna bring it up there tomorrow. Boo. How silly that I want to go to work simply to deliver a dvd. I'll text her and say I'll bring it tomorrow. I mean wednesday' TOmorrow's tomorrow.

Wow I type like shit when I'm tired. It's a good thing I've decided not to drive :P

Diane is back at work!! Yaaaay! She wears a glove now on the hand that she lost her finger on. Which I think is pretty smart. I'm so excited that she's back. It's too bad that I'm so desperate to leave. She's one of the few people I would want to stay for.

Yesterday we got lost driving home from the hospital. (My mom's doctor's found a lump in her breast, and we had to drop off X-Rays. I'm not worried about it yet though, especially since my sister doesn't have a bad feeling and she was right with Lori and Mary...). We got lost in this city called Milford and omg. It was so cute. I loved it, I'm definitely adding it to my job search city list.

My aunt is also helping me out. She sent me a ton of links to magazines in Texas for me to check out. She also said there were 4,000 ad agencies in Georgetown alone. I find that hard to believe. Not that she's a liar, but WHA? That's a lot!! Maybe the internet is wrong :P

I watched "Smart People" today. Not sure what I want to rate it on the ol' Flixster site just yet. It wasn't bad. I'd probably like it more the second time, and pick up on things I missed.

OH OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!! Kristen Bell and Rob Thomas are talking about doing a VERONICA MARS movie!!! FOR REAL!!!! I want to cry, seriously. I'm sooooooo excited, this NEEDS to happen!!!!

Today was yet another day where I spent time looking for jobs. I got such a headache doing it, too. Half the places I'm interested in don't post about entry level stuff, some don't have career listings at all, and gahhhh!!! I wanted to stay here or go to Fort Worth, but I might end up trying to go to Chicago. There would be a Publishing house I could work at there, right? :P Even the crappy ass employment sites don't have anything. One only showed positions in the Navy! Screw that!!!

I texted Annie and she is going to try to look into places in downtown Fort Worth for me. I tried looking it up myself but it gave me an even bigger headache. MEH.

I also looked into classes at Schoolcraft, a local community college. I could continue studying art. I'd like to re-learn web design since I haven't done that since Senior year at LHS. I could also learn how to use flash and other animation stuffs. BUT in addition to that, I would also learn some other crap, like technical writing. Then I could get a job not in my field, but it'd still be a decent job. And NOT at Sears. Ugh.

I redid my myspace...it looks pretty good. I even made new boxes for "Who I Want to Meet". It's pretty snazzy. I have to make one for Hailey, too, but I have to wait until she gets online and lets me know who she wants. You should go look and tell me how awesome I am :)

Jackie's snazzy space.


I need a cuddly baby critter to love :(

I really really reeeeeally hate it at Sears. I mean REALLY. A lot of the people are getting to be ass holes, some of them always were, and some I'm just confused by. Tensions are high, hours are low, and people are reaching their breaking points. Even the happiest people there that I have NEVER seen angry are getting unhappy, including myself.

I will say that yes, I do hide myself away when I'm at work. There are very few people that I fit in with there, and for the most part we all have different jobs so I'm rarely in their company. But for the few moments I spend with these people, I feel like it's okay to be myself. But the others, I just don't understand. Ugh. When I'm there I don't talk often, I just do what I'm supposed to and move on. What else WOULD I do? I think a few people take that as a lack of intelligence, or find me to be boring, but whatever. I'm just not happy there and more and more I grow to hate it.

Today I had to fight to keep myself from breaking down into tears. Which actually, was quite a shock because I can't remember the last time I really cried. I rarely do. Even if I'm watching a sad movie or tv show, sometimes I have to fight for tears to come to feel that release. And today I had to fight to keep it in.

FUCK.

I need a new job, but it's so hard..... I'm honestly so close to just going and getting a hosting job, because I know that. The pay will probably be shitty. Oh well. I can't just up and quit Sears like I so badly wanted to today. I have to start paying back student loans in October :(

I feel so broken. I'm at my wits end, as Jafar says :P

I will give you one little ray of sunshine, though. I have to do these fucking PCNs (Price Change Notifications) but all the merchandise in the back is so jam-packed that I can't get to anything. At all. (The back is pretty much the size of a warehouse, if that gives you an idea of how bad it is). So I was complaining about it to Cindy and Marianne. Cindy says "You can't get through that shit! You're not a fucking SPIDER!" That made me laugh a lot. Ahahahaha. I can just see a little black spider crawling over all the merchandise scanning for numbers. Lmao.

Okay I feel better after thinking about that, but really. I've had about all I can take....

Ugh, I just woke up. I feel bad though. At work today I started to get really hot, my head started hurting more (it's been bugging me due to TMJ lately) and I began to feel sick. When I left, I planned on eating something and then laying down, but when I got home, 2 of my sisters were over, and so was Chelsea. She and I started coloring and watching Fear Itself/Gilmore Girls, when she left to go spend time with her dad before he went to work. She said she'd come over later, but when she left, I finished coloring what I was working on and went to lay down. The tiredness (3-4 hours of sleep) and all the other stuff was getting to me. While I was laying down, Chels called and asked if I wanted to come over. I told her I was laying down because I felt tired, but I'd come over later. I almost told her to call me in 2 hours, but when I feel like that, I'm not so good in the thinking/actions department. So we hung up and I fell asleep.

Here we are, hours later at 11:30 pm. I feel so bad. I'd call and go over now, but because school is starting, she had to go to bed 2 hours ago :( Ughhhh. I'll make it up to her tomorrow, but I still feel horrible :(

In other news, today at work a customer freaked me out. First thing in the morning he and Tasha, the only Salesperson there got into a shouting match, and me being tired and creative-minded, was expecting him to come back with a gun and start shooting. Isn't it sad that society has gotten that bad? But things were handled and turned out fine. Well, ya know...as fine as they can be after that first thing.

This video game ad to the left of the entry-typing box is disturbing me. It's for an MMORPG but it's creeping me out and I don't like it :P

Oh! And there was this guy at work in a red shirt who kept talking to me. He was nice, but it also made me uneasy. Not in a creepy way, but....I just wasn't looking for that. And I kept accidentally making eye contact :P I realized he was there aaagain, and I had to repeat "don't look up, don't look up" in my head to avoid looking up. Luckily, after that he left.

I might go see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 tomorrow. We shall see.

Last night on Shark Week, they mentioned the Megladon. That was a prehistoric shark, currently extinct (so they say, but how would they know if it lived waaaaaaaaaayyyy down below???? Hmmm?!). It was up to 30 feet long and had massive teeth. They showed the tooth next to the typical gray white tooth and hoooooooolllly shit. It was like standing a yorkie next to a rott. One tooth found was 7 inches long. 7 INCHES!!!!!!!!! So crazy. I remembered that when I was younger, I read a book called "Meg" that was about the Megladon. It was fiction, along the lines of Jaws, but I think the shark was 60 feet in the book. I could be way off about that, though. I should read it again, it was good.

I left work early today. Well, sort of. I was there from 7:30-11:30 and when you're working on your day off, what would you call that? Ah well. I'm currently eating my left over Italian Cazone Sub from Hungry Howie's, and drinking a pepsi. Sugar + red meat = not good. Both of those make psoriasis itch like a bitch, I think the same may be true for mosquito bites, because out of no where, one of the bites on my heel started itching like a biotch. Oh well. I've CERTAINLY dealt with worse. And it's so yummy :) THERE'S A PARTY IN MY TUMMY!!!!!!!! Aaaaahahahahaha.

Yesterday's word of the day was a massive one. Sesquipedalian. Why in the world do you need such a long word to say "long word". YES that word means "long word". In it's adjective form, it means "characterized by the use of long words" or "long and ponderous, having many syllables". Youuuuu little flirt.

In about half an hour I'm leaving to see Mamma Mia! Weeeee! Hopefully today I can get my bangs cut, maybe stop by Michaels, maybe do a little job hunting, ya dig?

IT, is sooooooooooooooo frakkin' LONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bahhh, it's so fucking hot here, that I'm almost happy to be going into work. At least they have air conditioning! And hopefully we'll be kept busy by the sale. Wednesdays are actually my favorite days to work, because I get to sleep in, AND always have something to do. I love love looooove it.

Today should actually be my last day until Monday, but since Diane is out, BEM (Beady-Eyed Mongoose) asked me if I would work Thursday and Friday as well. Well sure, because I want the money and that is the only reason. Tomorrow I'm not staying long, though, because I'm gonna go see Mamma Mia. Gotta support Amanda Seyfried you know :)

OMG DIANE! Just so you know she is one of the sweetest people you will ever meet. She's an older woman and she works her ass off at Sears, is a great person. Apparently over the weekend, she was walking her dog (big dog apparently) and the dogs chain wrapped around her finger when he went to take off, and pulled her finger OFF. Omg. That's so horrible, and it's creepy to even think about. I guess I'm not SO creeped out (the guy who had his knee cap ripped off still makes me wanna puke) but the fact that she had to go through all that fear and pain makes me so sad. At least it's over now. I guess they managed to put her finger back on with a rod or something... Sally bought her a card, and Jim is taking up a collection. Ugh, I hope she's doing okay.

Meh....I have to leave for work in 20 minutes, which means getting dressed. In all black. That's right we have to wear all black at Sears. One day I'm gonna go in with black hair, black eye shadow, and black nails just be like "In yo' FACE".

I'm sleepy, I want to sleep. And read "It". I'm almost halfway through it now, yayyyy! It's so long lol.

I guess I gotta go. Peace out :P

I'm so tired. I have to work tomorrow but I don't want to sleep. I want to read, and I want to watch my new favorite station, "Investigation Discovery". It is soooo good. All about FBI cases, and investigations, andddd crazy psycho killers and stuff. Although, watching this station a lot, and reading Stephen King is fucking with my head. I've been having weird dreams. Well... I always have weird dreams, but these are weird in a creepy sense.

You know the girl in "The Ring"? I can't remember her name... Samara or whatever. I had a dream that I woke up and she was in my room. But... not like, crawling out of the tv. She was standing facing the corner of my room, back to my bed, and she was in that white nightgown and her hair was all down and in her face. Then I ran out of my room to my nephew's room and slept in there with him, haha. There was more to the dream than that, but I can't remember it clearly enough :/

I'm reading "It". That book is over 1000 pages long!! Holy shit! I'm like... 200 pages in I think. Probably a little bit more. The last part I read scared the shit out of me and I had to sleep with the tv on, haha. I was hoping to be done with this book before we went camping, but thaaaaat's not gonna happen. Oh well. I'll just scare the shit out of myself while sleeping out doors. No bid deal, right? Haaaaa. At least I didn't choose to read "The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon" while camping. Then I'd be fucked. :)

Oh shit son, so today.... I printed my portfolio. It scares the crap out of me, because it means now it's time to start the job hunt. I mean, I want out of Sears, no doubt. I hate it there now. The only thing I like about it is a handful of people that I work with. But I'm soooo scared to start applying places. I'm looking into publishing houses mostly. I really want to make book covers. I've made 6 for assignments, so.... yay! I love it. I want to do it. I'm looking in Michigan and in Texas. I'm scared scared scared scared. I really think I'm gonna end up in Texas. But I don't want to stay long. Too far away from family. Ugh.

My sister had her check-up today! Cancer-free!! Yayyyy!! We were all so happy. Her next check-up is in October. Hopefully it'll all still be good. It was funny, she came out and was laughing because the doctor looked in her no-no area, and was like "It looks beautiful!" He meant of course, that she was clean and good, nothing there. But she kept walking around saying "I have a pretty pussy!" Hahahahha it was funny. I love my family.

Gahhhhh!!! I don't know why, but I'm in such a fit of rage today. Last night I was cranky and now I'm downright... well, infected with rage. Like in "28 Days Later". Did anyone see any crazy monkeys around here?!

I'm really hoping that it's a sign that my period is about to come back. I do NOT want to get those hormonal tests, because that means more doctor visits and doctor bills on no insurance. Bah. Fuck that.

Today at work was Just Reduced day. Every Monday we have to scan aaaaaallllll the merchandise on the floor to see if the price went down. For each piece, it goes down a month. But for some reason every FUCKING tag from July 9th WOULD NOT FUCKING SCAN!!! I was getting so mad. I very nearly threw the stupid snic on the ground and was gonna pretend it was an accident. Everytime you CAN'T scan the shit, you have to manually put in the division number, the model number, and the four-digit number that distinguishes tags from each other. OMG I was so pissed. I remember thinking about how some people can see auras, and if anyone walked in the same room as me, they'd probably go running for cover. Yeah. I was THAT pissed.

I still am, but at least now I'm not at a boring as fuck job where the time is dragging on and on and on and fucking on.... Here at least I can have my music, my movies, my books, my Internet. All that stuff is gooooooood. Oooo I could even take a nap! Mmmm...nap.

This is my third day reading Twilight, and it feels weird because the last few books I read I finished in 2 days, or 3. If I don't finish it tonight I'll get super-impatient and want to hurry through it. Maybe I'll read some and then get reeeeeally tired and then fall asleep and stuff....idk lol.

But gahhhh I don't know about this. Vampire love stories can never end well lol. Unless the vampire becomes human, but...I only liked that the one time in Angel. It made me cry :( Maybe in LJ Smith's books the vampire-human thing worked out...I can't remember though it's been YEEEEEEEEEAAAARRRRRSSS since I read those. And OMG I saw "The Vampire Diaries" at B&N and omg omg. IT HAD A NEW COVER!!!!!

Okay you're probably thinking I'm a spaz, but I thought all of LJ Smith's books were going out of print, and now..... there's A NEW COVER!!! I like it better lol.... but how sensible is it to re-buy the thing just cuz it's prettier?? Probably not very, but I so would...

Ahhhh I just got an email from my aunt. Here, you can read it :)

Hi Jackie,
The keychain you sent Ann (she received it today) is wonderful. I would like to hire you for a project. I need about 67 placemats with a family tree on it and fall colored leaves. It's for our Thanksgiving table at (hopefully) the Marriott in Livonia on Nov. 27th. I would like the placemats laminated. Is this something you would be interested in doing? I think I would, also, like a keychain for everyone but need to think that through a little more.
LAP

I'm gonna be hired again! Woot! At this rate I'm gonna have material for a whole new portfolio before I even get the first one printed!!

This news has made me happier. I'm gonna go before that changes, cuz I can still feel the fire inside....

Gahhhhhhhhh!!!! I'm getting so annoyed working on this effing portfolio. But I have to do it, I HAVE to because I keep putting it off the more I lose that SC vibe. And the more I put it off, the worse I feel. Ugh. I've been going at it for about 2 hours though, so at least that's good.

I have to do it though. I'm about to reach my breaking point at Sears. And no doubt, at home. I have to get a real job. I'm just so frustrated right now.

I'm trying to fix a magazine cover design I did...and it's just not working. I emailed a friend from school to get her opinion, which helps. I think it's as good as it's gonna get, which still isn't good enough for me, but oh well.

Also, have you ever seriously doubted where you're going in life? I mean, I was originally a journalism major. And I wonder what would happen if I quit art entirely and focused on writing. When I was writing all the time, I was good at it. I'd get A's on my papers, and was even the envy of my journalism class. Why did I stop? For two reasons. 1, I discovered the love of graphic design. 2, I got scared. Story of my life.

But seriously, how the frak am I supposed to know if I'm doing the right thing? I know I'm re-thinking this because of the pressure. But there are other doubts weighing me down. And what if this ISN'T what I should be doing? What if I got off my ass and started writing my stories?? What if that spark would be rekindled?

Guhhhh I'm not in the place to experiment, because I know myself. I'll get partway into something and lose interest. I just can't do that. I HAVE to get somewhere and soon. With Graphic Design, I already have the degree. I almost have the portfolio.

I so wish I wasn't such a 'fraidy cat in high school. If I wasn't, I would have stuck with singing lessons, acting lessons, drawing, etc. And I'd probably kick ass at them by now. Ugh. That's one thing I really struggle with not regretting. I know everything happens for a reason, but all those things deliberately did NOT happen because of my fears. Lame lame lame. It makes me so mad at myself.

If I dwell on that, I get sooooo sad, and I REALLY feel regretful. But I can't have that, because I can't change it. So, I'll go back to this portfolio work, and hope that it stops pissing me off long enough for me to get somewhere....

I was so embarrassed today at work!! I was talking to two people I work with, Darek and Lisa. Darek is about my age, and Lisa is 40ish. And of course, I'm relentlessly trying to get people to go see Forgetting Sarah Marshall tomorrow. So I keep plugging it, talking about the movie and Kristen Bell and Paul Rudd. So yeah... Lisa looks at Darek and says "You should take her to the movies."

Oh. My. Wow.

I really hope I didn't blush when she said that because I don't want him to get the wrong idea. I really tried my best to just play it off like, eh. I just shrugged and said "You can come with us tomorrow night if you want." He just said "I don't really go to the movies anymore".

I kept thinking, should I say something to him? Apologize for that moment? No, that's dumb because I did NOTHING to instigate it whatsoever. I kept thinking I should say at least "Uh I didn't have anything to do with that, so don't worry". But I did not.

But boys don't read into that stuff, do they? It's just girls that do that kind of thing. He's a really cool guy and I enjoy talking to him, I just... yeah. I hope there's no misunderstandings there.

So do you want to hear something weird? For the first time in a VERY long time, I felt happy and accomplished today! And it all happened because I forced myself to crack my shell that I've built up. A shell of anger, fear and misery. A bad bad shell. Not a good one. Comprende?

Anyhoo.

I'm really effing tired but I still have more stuff to do before I go to bed, and I really need a break from that crap. So on we go.

I was worried today was gonna be bad. First off, I woke up 45 minutes late. Not a big deal, but I did want to shower before work. I didn't get that opportunity. Then when I went to make my lunch, I caused a massive avalanche of cookie sheets and muffin tins by picking up a loaf of bread. Yes, I am that awesome.

So I started out pretty crankily. Ha, crankily. But work went surprisingly well. I talked to a few people, got a bunch of work done... although the last hour was a drag because there was nothing to do. BUT it allowed time for social interaction. I actually talked to a lot of people where as normal I'd be quiet and keep to myself.

About 20 minutes before punch time, I had to change clothes because I had to go straight to school. I felt stupid though. My uniform is all black, so I went from that to tight khaki pants, a green tank top and a purple zip-up. I was really colorful and I felt like an attention whore. But I wasn't!! I had school, dammit. I still felt like I'd be judged though. But Diane, this really sweet woman I work with kept telling me how cute I was and that I looked like a Barbie doll. Haha, I love her, it was sweet.

So this good day vibe followed me to school, where it helped me to deliver a pretty good speech. I think the teacher thinks I'm a bit loopy, but on the plus side, he said he was going to rent Veronica Mars. Woo hoo!

Here at home I edited all my pictures for my portfolio while watching the new episodes of Bones and One Tree Hill (awww I want a Nathan :), and finishing up the first half of Apocalypse Now.

Now it's 11:10 pm and I still have to finish up my crap for the art show. It's not much, just have to mount something, but I'm so tired and blah.... I just want to... I don't know what I want to do. But I want to do it. Sleep or shower or something, lol. Maybe watch a lil something.

I don't know. Want to hear something stupid? There's a friend that I've been hanging out with quite a bit. We are quite close, but don't hold the bff titles. So... idk, it still makes me sad when I read her answer questions about her best friend... I mean it shouldn't, because we are really close. It just makes me feel like... I don't know, like there's a wall up there and that nothing I do can be good enough. But that's dumb, because it seems like I'm trying to beat out her best friend. I don't want to do that, though. But that's what it seems like. I guess I just need reassurance. A lot of it. Beh.

I really need to learn to keep up the happy vibes. I really want to be like Eddie at work. He's so happy and positive. I love it, that's how I want to be. I usually am like that, but lately not so much. I am trying though! I'm trying.

So today I spent all day in my pajamas, reading for the most part. I even showered, and then put the same pjs back on. DON'T JUDGE ME! They were clean.

Yesterday I hung out with Laura and Laura. Of course, the night before I couldn't sleep when I had to be to work at 6:30 a.m. I laid down around 12, 12:30 and apparently thought to much and could calm down enough to rest. The next time I looked at the clock, it was 2:30. Shit. I thought "If I'm not asleep by 4:30, I'm just staying awake". Luckily, I switched and laid my head at the foot of the bed and fell asleep soon after. Needless to say, at work I was a zombie.

Then wouldn't ya know it, when I got home I couldn't fall asleep AGAIN. But I finally did and woke up at around 5. Laura and I went to Red Robin, and then went to Laura's. Confusing, I know lol. How bout this. Laura and I went to Laura Loo's. I call the other Laura, Laura Loo.

So we got there and started planning the crappy horror movie night that we're hosting in May. This was while waiting for 9 to approach because we were going to see "Run, Fat Boy, Run". Good movie, btw. When we got back from that, we took pictures to put on the invites. Which were pretty hilarious.

Today, after finishing one book, continuing a Buffy tradeback, and while watching tv, I started to work on the invitation. But it pissed me off, so I stopped haha. I pretty much have the background down, the main image. Just gotta do text stuff. Maybe I'll let you see it when I'm done. If you're lucky, punk B)

I'm gonna try to work on it more now, but I'll probably just get angry again lol

What an emotional day.

It started off at an emotional low. This woman came into our store and was a total bitch. We have our mattresses on racks. Some are sold as singles, some are sold as a set (matt + foundation). The ones that are sold as a set, you price together and write the total and stick it on there. Well it just so happened that SHE wanted a set that came as a set, but each piece was priced individually instead of added together. Also, on the foundation's tag it said "box only" but the mattress tag did NOT say "matt only" (I hope that makes sense).

Anywho, Sandra, the sales associate that was helping her out, called me over to ask me what was up with this. I wasn't quite sure. The lady was pretty bitchy and asked to see a manager, but I went and got Katherine first. BEFORE she asked to see the manager, I said that Katherine would know what was up (she has the same job as me). So I got Katherine, and this woman bitched at her saying "This says box only, but this doesn't say matt only. As a customer, this is confusing to me. I'll take it right now if you give it to me for the mattress price". When she realized that Katherine wasn't a manager she decided to chew me out, because she asked for a MANAGER. Katherine tried to tell her that the manager wouldn't change the price. Psycho-woman wouldn't listen, though.

"I was a manger for 20 years, you don't know what the manager can do! Go get a manager!" Blah blah blah. While Katherine left she went on and on and on to me about all this crap. Finally when Alvin and Kevin showed up, I left. Dumb biotch. Did they give it to her for the matt price? NO. Ugh. Just like we SAID!!!!!!! RARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

So needless to say, I was in a pretty P.O'd mood. Until I talked to my friend, Laura.

I had texted her about some non-sense, and she texted back, but added "Oh btw I freaking love Veronica Mars". (She borrowed it from me).

Well, if you know me, you could pretty much say "Say no more!" and realize how happy I was lol. But I'll go on. It was like euphoria.

Laura said she was hooked after the first episode. That she loved the characters and the writing and the situations. She LOVES LOVES LOVES Kristen Bell now. Where as she liked her before (due to me, thank you very much ;), she REALLY loves her now. She's also sad because she knows VM ends rather abruptly *tear*. BUT if we get enough people to watch this show, then maybe we can get more!!!!!!

So I was elated. This happened around 12:30, 1ish and I'm still riding the wave of excitement that Laura loved the show so much. I was so happy and smiley and I could go on and on and on but I won't.

Hey, I may be a nerd. But you all love me :)


PS -- Watch Veronica Mars ;)

I just watched "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition" and omgggggg. That freakin' show makes me CRY. At least it was inspirational cry, not sad cry. It was so cute :) Loved it. I couldn't handle watching it all the time though. Just cuz I don't want to see the sad stuff.

Anyway.

(I used that word a lot, btw).

ANYWAYYYYY.

I would love to be able to do something like that. To be able to HELP PEOPLE like that. I mean, I've donated money to charities, I've done favors for people, I went on a Habitat for Humanity outing. Which I guess was the best of all that, because I want to really get involved with this stuff. I just don't know how. How do you get a job like that, and what would I do to contribute? I mean, after they built this family a home, I saw people wiping down the counters with windex. I could totally do that part.

But really. That would be an awesome job. I've always wanted to do something along those lines. Not the windex so much, I do that now at Sears and it SUCKS, but.... having a job where I actually help people who really need it and appreciate it?

I want to do that! I really really really DO!

So, Beady-Eyed Mongoose strikes again.

So today I'm at work and it's actually going pretty well. I sort of blew off the first hour, but it was talking to Eddie so whatever lol. I love Eddie. He's so funny. He got married at 19, has been with his wife 40 years, they both ride motorcycles, neither of them have ever smoked or done drugs, and he's drank exactly ONCE in his life. He's what, 55 or so? And he's very punny. (Example, he went into a store that sells cherry products, and upon leaving said, "Thank you cherry much!" to the cashier lol. He cracks me up).

And then I took my sweet time pricing the fence. Not because I meant to, but because the first printer I got just would NOT scan, and the first roll of stickers I used kept jamming. Meh. But it finished. Lori was really sick, and she had 4 trucks to receive. It's a really lengthy process, but I enjoy it, and I enjoy helping her. So when I was asked to assist her, I was all for it.

So we're working.
Hi Ho, Hi Ho, it's off to work we go...

We go to lunch.
Yum.

We get back, and about 10 minutes later, Marianne texts Lori and it says "Alvin is tired of". Well okay then lol. We hunt her down. Apparently Alvin told her that he was sick of Lori complaining and leaving early. He's thinking of demoting her to a cleaning position and giving me and Lisa her job.

Umm HELLO? That's not how it works!

FIRST of all, jack-shit, she is not a CLEANER. If she finished her work, Kevin TOLD HER that she can leave early. It costs the company money for her to stay later, anyway, and if her job is DONE, then she does NOT HAVE TO STAY!

Also, the BEM is pissed that Lori won't STAY PAST HER SHIFT to CLEAN FRIDGES! HI! Again, NOT HER JOB! Why the HELL would she stay late to do NOT HER JOB?!??!

Lori called Kevin and told her that she heard all this when she was about to go into the office. He said that no, he can NOT just demote her or fire her. First off, she has to be written up twice and then KEVIN has to approve it. Ha. That's not happening.

Kevin is a good person! And Alv... er, the BEM, is a chauvinistic, lazy-ass power-tripping freak!

When we were setting up the Day After Thanksgiving sale, Alvin worked. Katherine and I ended up staying late. Alvin got one or two other employees to help us work.

When we were setting up the Day After Christmas sale, Kevin worked. Katherine and I, again, ended up staying late. Kevin HIMSELF helped! He got a roll of red tags and started tagging the refrigeration section, and THEN, because she and I stayed so late, he said the next day we worked, we could go home as soon as we finished the sale! (We didn't finish it that day).

Now THAT is a good manager, and a good person. Definitely not a woman-hater. And Alvin IS a cocky bastard who thinks women are beneath him. When Lori's husband came in to visit one day, Alvin said "Thanks for letting her work with us." Um, ex-squeeze me? Baking powder? LETTING her work? As if she needed his permission!

I'm serious, no one likes this prick. I left in a HORRIBLE mood. Good thing I had therapy right after work, lol. I got to vent about the BEM. I hate him. I told my therapist that I actually liked my job, I like the people I work with, but I HATE him. I hope his stupid ass gets fired. I swear, the SECOND he does something wrong I'm calling that 1-800 number. Ugh.


In other news, my sister's surgery is tomorrow. Most of her quilt card is patched together, except for a few that either haven't arrived yet, or haven't dried yet. Or haven't been made yet lol. I will admit, I'm a bit nervous, but everyone is praying and I'm trying to stay as positive as I can. Hopefully after this she'll be back to her happy self. I don't like my sister depressed :(

OH and OMG One Tree Hill. I HATED Nathan for the first hour and fifty-five minutes lol. He redeemed himself in the end though, so I suppose I'll end up forgiving him. I really like this show, and Supernatural of course. Here's hoping that the CW doesn't fuck it up like every other good show they've had their grubby little hands on :P


PS-- Um, why is it that I can't choose an icon until AFTER I post the entry? Wee-uhhld.