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Susan (_bonetopick) wrote,
@ 2014-07-18 08:20:00

[Private to self]

Personal Journal
Apparently they put drilled some hard to break habits into my head in the hospital, since I'm not there anymore and I'm still writing in here. It helps, though.

This place. I don't even know where to start. My family is here. It's mind blowing. I've been enjoying time with them. Auntie Amelia got married! And she's having a baby. I'm so excited for her. But I can't help but feel a tiny bit of jealousy when other people call her Aunt. I mean, yes, technically by marriage she's their aunt, and I apparently have a ton of cousins thanks to Uncle (?) Gideon (that makes him sound so old though), but... she was my auntie first, you know? And I had to lose her when I needed her the most, and now she's here and I have to share...

I sound horribly selfish. I can't help my feelings, though.
[/Ward]

It's not like me to not write in my journal for a long period of time, but I've been sorting a few things out. ~~That and half the time I'm not really sure I want to share my thoughts so I don't say anything.~~ I'm working at the grocery store now.

[Friends/family]
I work at the store with Peter Pettigrew. It's scary, but he's closer to my age so we just kind of don't talk to each other unless we have to? But still...

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	aliceagain 2014-07-18 04:02 pm UTC (link)
	Where were you working before the grocery? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-18 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	I had been assigned to the manager of Smuggled. At least, that's how it was when I came here, or from what I remember. Apparently I had been here before and that's what I was doing. But I just didn't feel like I could really manage anything right now. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Susan about_abbott 2014-07-18 06:03 pm UTC (link)
	If you ever want or need to talk I'm always here for you. I feel like too often we're just passing by each other and not spending time. As far aw working with Peter all I can say is keep your guard up. He acts like he's harmless enough but that is always misleading. At least with the Lestranges we know they're a danger. (Reply to this) (Thread)

Hannah

_bonetopick
2014-07-18 09:59 pm UTC (link)

I know. I feel like a lot of that is my fault, too. I'm trying not to stay withdrawn but it's hard with so many people and changes and things in the village. Plus, you have your family here, too - I saw Neville's mum and AJ are here. I'm sorry I haven't been around for you.

My guard is always up. Nothing has happened so far yet, but it's a strange work environment. I think you should come visit me every so often so you can make sure everything is okay.

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	Susan about_abbott 2014-07-20 02:00 am UTC (link)
	Please don't feel that way. You are exactly who you are supposed to be and I love you for it. If anything I've been horrible at reaching out. I will come see you soon. I always need fresh ingredients. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hannah _bonetopick 2014-07-20 04:30 am UTC (link)
	I can't help it. I can't help feeling a lot of things these days. Okay. Maybe we can cook something together with them when we are both home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Susan about_abbott 2014-07-20 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	Just remember that I mean it when I say I'm here for you. That would be nice. Anything in particular? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	perniciously 2014-07-18 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	Susan? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-18 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	...Yes? ~~I thought we were done with unfamiliar hands, journal.~~ I'm sorry. I feel like I should know this writing, but I'm not placing it very well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perniciously 2014-07-18 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	It's Lea ~~Mathews~~ Moon. How old are you, Susan? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-18 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	Lea. Yes. I'm eighteen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perniciously 2014-07-18 10:19 pm UTC (link)
	~~From before or afte~~ Apparently I was here before, but I left and returned. Have you been here long? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-18 10:22 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. Yes. Apparently I've done the same thing as well. In this current state, I've only been here a few weeks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perniciously 2014-07-18 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	It's a lot to take in, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-18 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	Definitely. I'm still working through a lot of it, but it takes me a while to work through most things these days. How old are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perniciously 2014-07-18 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	Don't worry. That passes. I'm 30. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-19 01:01 am UTC (link)
	Here or there? Or both? Ooh. From what I can tell from my journal, I was 30 last time I was here. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	_starlight 2014-07-18 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	I am the part time worker, I am Merope. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_bonetopick 2014-07-18 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	Hello Merope. I am Susan. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Susan swordofgryffin 2014-07-19 11:40 am UTC (link)
	As far as I know, he's been here almost a year and not hurt anyone. And trust me I'm keeping an eye on that sort of thing. ~~Some people trust far too easily~~ If anything does happen, or you see anything, you'd tell someone, right? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Harry _bonetopick 2014-07-20 04:31 am UTC (link)
	Absolutely. It's not so hard to forget about that kind of thing. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Susan \| Ernie ernie_macmillan 2014-07-20 02:03 am UTC (link)
	We could reassign you if it would make you feel better, love. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Susan \| Ernie _bonetopick 2014-07-20 04:32 am UTC (link)
	Oh, I wouldn't want to do that to you, not after you've already reassigned me once. I'll be okay. I think. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Al \| Susan blueseaweed 2014-07-20 02:04 am UTC (link)
	You don't need to share them if you don't want to, Susan, but I am glad to hear from you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Al \| Susan _bonetopick 2014-07-20 04:33 am UTC (link)
	My Healer at home said I should share them more often, but my thoughts either tend to be too trivial or too personal to verbalise. Thank you, though. I know you have a lot of people that love you in this village so I'm glad you're reaching out to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Al \| Susan blueseaweed 2014-07-21 01:30 am UTC (link)
	That is why I write and draw so much. We can never care about too many people. You helped me once too, you know. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Sally \| Susan noboneabout 2014-07-20 02:05 am UTC (link)
	You don't need to work if you don't want to, angel. Your uncle and I would be glad to help you until you are settled. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Sally \| Susan _bonetopick 2014-07-20 04:35 am UTC (link)
	I feel like it's good for me, Auntie. It helps me focus and not wallow so much in... things. I just worry about my company, but the job itself helps. Thank you for the offer, though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sally \| Susan noboneabout 2014-07-21 01:38 am UTC (link)
	You are likely correct, angel, but if you do want to get away from that man, we can help you in any way you like, even if it just means getting you a new assignment. Would you come for dinner soon? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Remus \| Susan callofthemoon 2014-07-20 02:11 am UTC (link)
	If you ever need an ear for the sorting of those things, darling, please let me know. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Remus \| Susan _bonetopick 2014-07-20 04:36 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Professor. I might take you up on that. I was seeing Healers daily back home, and I don't have that now, so things are a lot harder than they usually are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Remus \| Susan callofthemoon 2014-07-21 01:33 am UTC (link)
	Then please feel free to use me as a sounding board anytime. Tea soon? (Reply to this) (Parent)