Susan/Lea
I could have saved him. I should have saved him. It should have been me instead. My whole family is gone at that point... they could have just finished the job. I can't say he stayed because I wouldn't leave, but... I feel like it's my fault he died and that I should have done more to save him. I don't even know.
It wasn't just my loss, though. You're his best friend. I'm sorry for you too.