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b.d.p. ([info]_deni) wrote,
@ 2009-08-25 23:30:00

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Private -- King Only.

I hate that it's so easy for everybody else. I hate that they can get pregnant without even trying. On accident, even! I hate it! Why does this have to be so hard? Why does it have to be like this? What if I can't? What if we're going through all these steps, doing all these stupid things .. and it doesn't work? I hate seeing all these people who .. half of them didn't even want a baby. It's not fair. It's just not fair ..

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Blake
[info]london_fog
2009-08-26 03:43 am UTC (link)
I'm sorry, love. I'm sorry that...I'm just sorry.
We'll try. We'll try because we can't go on without trying.

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King
[info]_deni
2009-08-26 03:46 am UTC (link)
I hate her.
I hate her for being able to have the one thing I want most.
It breaks my heart that it's this hard.

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Blake
[info]london_fog
2009-08-26 03:51 am UTC (link)
I'm sorry I can't give you what you want most.
I want to give you that so bad. I really do.
I want to give you millions of babies, just to see you smile.

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King
[info]_deni
2009-08-26 03:59 am UTC (link)
It's not you that's keeping this from happening.
It's me. It's my body. It's my flaws.
I'm the one that can't do this, I'm the broken one.
None of this is your fault.

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Blake
[info]london_fog
2009-08-26 04:02 am UTC (link)
My love, We are in this together.
You aren't broken or flawed to me. You are perfect.
God broke the mold with you.
When we have our baby we'll appreciate it more than those who just have them on a whim.
I'm going to give you a baby. I am. If I have to jerk off in a million cuts I will... just make sure you get me something for the chaffing.

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King
[info]_deni
2009-08-26 04:16 am UTC (link)
That's not funny.
I'm tired of this all being so hard.
I'm just tired.

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Blake
[info]london_fog
2009-08-26 04:18 am UTC (link)
Not even a little funny?
Then...lets not make it so hard..lets try?

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King
[info]_deni
2009-08-26 04:20 am UTC (link)
I can't, dammit!
I can't. My body is not physically ready for it.
We, unfortunately, have to wait for a doctor to say that I'm ready for him to shove some stupid tube up in me. And God!
I HATE THIS!

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Blake
[info]london_fog
2009-08-26 04:24 am UTC (link)
If...if this is too much maybe we shouldn't do it then?
I mean...if it's too hard for you...

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King
[info]_deni
2009-08-26 04:29 am UTC (link)
No. I'm just ... I'm tired and I'm frustrated and I wish this was easier.
But I'm not ready to give up on this. I'm not.

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Blake
[info]london_fog
2009-08-26 04:32 am UTC (link)
Fuck those people.
Soon we'll be rubbing it in their faces that WE'RE having a baby so fuck them. Fuck them and their stupid fucking...whatever fuck. I love you.

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 12:14 am UTC (link)
i'm sorry i'll be home soon.
i promise.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 12:23 am UTC (link)
what are you sorry about?

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 12:28 am UTC (link)
for being gone so much.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 12:32 am UTC (link)
ooooh. well, you're a busy man.
i've missed you though.

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 12:33 am UTC (link)
I've missed you too.
It's just been crazy around here lately.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 12:42 am UTC (link)
well then get home safely so we can spend time with you.
kayla wants me to say 'hi daddy' for her.

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 12:43 am UTC (link)
I'll try.
Tell her I said hi too and I love her.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 12:51 am UTC (link)
i'll tell her.
we'll see you when you get here!

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 12:55 am UTC (link)
good.
yes, hopefully you will.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 12:59 am UTC (link)
how long will you be?
have you eaten?

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 01:01 am UTC (link)
I haven't eaten all day.
I'm just trying to finish these charts.
I'm hoping an hour.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 01:02 am UTC (link)
okay. call when you're on your way,
i'll get something read for you.

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 01:03 am UTC (link)
that's very sweet of you...you don't have to do that.
but i'll call.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 01:10 am UTC (link)
well, if you'd rather i not ..
there's stuff for sandwiches in the fridge.

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 01:12 am UTC (link)
no. I never said that.
I appreciate it, I just was saying....

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 01:20 am UTC (link)
i know you didn't and i know you'd appreciate it.
that's why i offered ..

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 01:21 am UTC (link)
Ok, well I am done.
I'll be calling in a few minutes.

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[info]_deni
2009-09-15 01:22 am UTC (link)
yay!

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[info]london_fog
2009-09-15 01:22 am UTC (link)
I'm glad you are very excited.

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