b.d.p. (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} _deni) wrote, |
i can't call you out of surgery because i got bad news. you have a job to do, kingston. you have a job that's incredibly important, life altering. i can't expect you to jump when i say to and .. i won't. i hated being alone, i hated feeling lonely but .. i couldn't call you. you tell me i can but i don't feel like i can. i feel like there are so many other things out there .. that are just more important than finding out that i'm still not pregnant. it hurts and it sucks but it's a fact in my mind. i wanted so much to have this piece of us and i think that it's just not worth the gamble anymore. something isn't right. marriage shouldn't be like this. so i'm taking the conflict out of the equation. besides, blythe is a stupid name anyhow.