Jenavieve Jenelle Warren (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} __jeni) wrote, |
#1. You ain't gonna be alone if you choose to go to the IVF appointment. You're never fuckin' alone, D, and I wish I'd known it was this bad for you, sooner. But you're never alone, and it breaks my heart that you've been made to feel that way. You gotta believe it's gonna happen, if that's what you want. You're a fighter, D, so fight through these feelings you've got. Cause like I said, you're never alone.
#2. You ain't a failure either. You ain't good for nothing or none of that shit. As for not feeling good enough for him? Them? Fuck that shit. I know that's probably the last thing you wanna hear right now, but fuck that shit, Blake Denin Jacobs. That's a whole load of crap. You've been nothing but amazing to his little girl, so don't you tell me you ain't good enough for her. As for him, it's the other way around. He ain't good enough for you. Period. End of fuckin' sentence, ya hear?
#3. Trust me, I plan on giving him a whole lot if he shows his sorry ass around here, and it sure as hell ain't information he'll be getting.
Now, that was the tough love part. Here's the part where I tell you, D, you know why I first thought you were an amazing best friend? Cause, it sure as hell ain't your moves (sorry, white girl, but you can't dance, ha) No, but for real. You have one of the kindest, biggest hearts of anyone I know. You give everything you are to the people you love. You don't know how to hate -- not the way I do, anyways, and you're the kinda girl who knows how to beat the odds. Not with a fist, but with your courage, your kindness, and your adaptability. There was a time, you know, when I woulda said even trying to get pregnant wouldn'ta worked, given what you had to deal with. I woulda said it was a pipe dream. And then I realized, hey. This is my best fucking friend. If there's anyone who can achieve the impossible, it's her. You believed it could happen. Because that's what you do. And before I start getting all sappy and disgrace myself here .. let me just say that. Where I once might've seen only 'the impossible,' you've made it so I see things differently. So don't stop believing in that, D. Don't stop believing it can happen. I know it's gotta be hard, but you gotta have faith. And patience. And the D I know not only has those, but grace and strength too.
You can do this. And .. as much as I wanna throw him to the fuckin' fishes, if you believe in your marriage and your husband, you can achieve anything you want with him, too. I may not think King's your fairy tale prince, but .. I do know that if anyone's a princess, it's you. And I gotta believe that if there's anyone in the world that deserves to have everything, it's you. So, don't give up on that.
I love you, D. You're family. Don't ever forget that. ♥