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Tweak says, "Welease Bwian!"

b.d.p. (_deni) wrote,
@ 2009-01-07 20:57:00

Current mood:

bouncy

PRIVATE!! -- Open to King, Jeni, and Bay Only.

I want to shout it everywhere in one instance and then keep it to myself in the next. I still can't believe that it happened even though I have the ring on my finger to prove it. I called to tell Mom earlier and she screamed in my air. I couldn't hear anything for about an hour. Bryce .. well, she reacted in typical Bryce fashion. Happily but disengaged.

Speaking of engaged .. I am!!

END PRIVATE!!

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	__jeni 2009-01-07 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	Congratulations, girl. Remember what I said though. No pastels! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_deni 2009-01-07 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	There won't be any pastels. I promise! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	__jeni 2009-01-07 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	You're gonna look so beautiful, you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jeni. _deni 2009-01-08 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	I'm kinda nervous about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Deni. __jeni 2009-01-08 08:39 pm UTC (link)
	How come? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jeni. _deni 2009-01-08 08:43 pm UTC (link)
	What if I end up not being enough for him? What if I make a shitty wife? Do you think we're rushing into things? I mean .. we've only known each other a few months. What if we get married and a few months or years later he realizes he made this huge mistake by settling for me? I mean .. I'm just a kid compared to him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Deni.

__jeni
2009-01-08 08:48 pm UTC (link)

That's not possible. At least, not on your end. And you can't control his end, D. You are the most beautiful woman .. no, person that I've ever known, inside and out. Your brother runs a close second, but. My point is, there's no way that you aren't enough for him .. unless it's him that's lacking.

Marriage is a serious thing. If you don't want to get married right away, just tell him that. I can't say whether or not you're rushing into things, because the Deni I know knows how to make her own decisions .. so what's right for me might not be right for you.

All I can say is this. You're amazing. And you're kind and loving. Be confident in that, don't worry about the rest. Things will fall into place the way they should.

And remember, I love you.

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	Jeni. _deni 2009-01-08 09:11 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks, J. I love you, too. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	london_fog 2009-01-08 09:37 pm UTC (link)
	Well look at you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_deni 2009-01-08 09:43 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah? What about it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	london_fog 2009-01-08 09:48 pm UTC (link)
	I like this look on you. private;; are you completely and utterly happy? or...something else? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_deni 2009-01-08 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	Well, get used to it! private I am .. completely and utterly happy. But .. I'm completely and utterly terrified, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private london_fog 2009-01-08 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	I really....really love it when you are happy. You and I both are in the same boat. I am nervous and scared but I think about the two of us and I feel like I can be a better man and a good husband. All this because I think about you. I hope I can be it all for you. 'cause you are it for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private _deni 2009-01-08 09:57 pm UTC (link)
	Am I really? Like .. really really? Cause I'm so nervous that you're gonna wake up one morning and realize you could have had so much more than I can ever give you. And that terrifies me because I love you .. so much more than I thought was humanly possible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private london_fog 2009-01-08 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	What more could I possibly want? like what do you think I could want that you can't give me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private _deni 2009-01-08 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. Maybe you'll want someone smarter, somebody who understands you when you talk about certain things. Maybe you'll decide that it's silly for a doctor to marry someone who focuses so much on fashion and vanity. Maybe you'll want somebody who can give you ano.. I don't know. I just .. I want to be enough for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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london_fog
2009-01-08 10:29 pm UTC (link)

You know I think you are smart, beautiful and amazing. Sure you don't understand me when I say certain things but oh well? You aren't a doctor. I still don't know what the hell a cross stitch is and who this Coach guy is but ya know you still love me....

How come I feel like this is about....kids...is this about children? You and I ...not making any children together?

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_deni
2009-01-08 10:34 pm UTC (link)

It's partly about kids, yes. What if you decide that you want another and you don't really want to adopt? Cause .. I can't have them and ..

Or what if you realize that I'm just some silly little kid and you want somebody more mature or closer to your age or ..

You're the most amazing man that I know and I guess I'm just scared that somehow, just by being me .. that I'm gonna fuck it all up.

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london_fog
2009-01-08 10:48 pm UTC (link)

I never wanted Kayla to begin with. I mean when I Saw her I wanted her but like...I never thought about marriage or babies. I mean it would be amazing having a baby with you, but so would adopting...right?

I love you the way you are silly little kid and all. I don't want no one but you.

You're the most amazing woman I know. You won't fuck it up. I just...do you not want to be engaged? ..do you..not want this anymore? If so..I'll understand.

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	private _deni 2009-01-08 10:51 pm UTC (link)
	Oh my God, no. That isn't that at all! I just .. I love you so much and I want to be a good wife and I'm just scared that I won't be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private london_fog 2009-01-08 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	Have a little faith in me and yourself. We're going to be amazing together. Just have a little faith. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private _deni 2009-01-08 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	I do have faith, I'm just nervous. You may have to reassure me every so often and .. I'll gladly do the same for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private london_fog 2009-01-08 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	how about I reassure you by climbing into bed with you and showing you a little affection? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private _deni 2009-01-08 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	I kind of like that plan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private london_fog 2009-01-08 11:38 pm UTC (link)
	Well I am on my way to make this happen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private _deni 2009-01-08 11:49 pm UTC (link)
	yay!! (Reply to this) (Parent)