b.d.p. (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} _deni) wrote,@ 2009-01-16 21:55:00 |
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He asked me to move in. He asked me and I just sat there .. asked him if he was serious. Cause .. somehow, in my head, the connection wasn't there between marriage and living together. And that's pathetic and stupid because obviously people who are married .. tend to live together.
But when he asked me? I didn't know what to say. And he just .. he said nevermind. I hate it when he does that! He takes it back and makes me feel like an idiot because I didn't react the right way the first time. I can only react the way that I react. So .. I don't know. It just .. I needed time to let the question .. reach my brain?
I love him. And I want to marry him. So .. of course I want to live with him! I just .. didn't think that he'd ask me like .. right now.
I'm an idiot. I walked out on him last night and came home to sleep even when he asked me to stay just because he wanted to go to bed rather than talk to me right then and there. I hate trying to sleep when stuff is bugging me because I never sleep .. and I didn't sleep last night! All I wanted to do was talk to him and figure out what was going on. And I knew if I stayed there last night, I would have woken him up in the middle of the night. Which I didn't want to do.
Ugh! I feel like such a kid sometimes.
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