See, that's the funny thing - when you say that, you're trying to pretend to be less scheming than you think you are. But in truth, you're in so far over your head that I'm stunned you're still breathing.
Don't worry - crazed paranoia runs in the Black branch of the family, not mine.
You're on the board? Why didn't you say so, you golden-hearted angel of mercy? Please. I've been on plenty of boards in my life. It's an excuse for you to waste time and feel good about yourself instead of doing anything useful. You want to make a difference and earn everyone's respect, then go out and do something. A more generously minded person would already be exploiting her new position to help others.