It's a hell of a role

I know before I get started that this is going to get taken incorrectly by people so I'm putting that picture up there as a good bold reminder. If you find yourself thinking that I'm taking any side but my own, look at the picture. I have always looked out for me above my friendships, especially in RP because I tend to find RP relationships to be far more volatile, as a vast generalization, for whatever reason so looking out for myself has generally been my top priority. Do I get upset when my friends get hurt? Absolutely. My general rule is, though, if there's enough drama going on in a game for it to be getting back to me at all? There's too much drama because I don't talk to a lot of people. I really do my best to stay in the middle of things so far as to give the advice several times in several different instances that you need to do what's best for you.

Now that that's been said. I'm done with public games. I hate the drama. I hate it. I hate dealing with people I don't know because I'll start a line, get really attached and then drama. I used to really love RPing and meeting new people. I still tell my parents that meeting some of you has been awesome. I love talking to people. I love learning new things and whatever but lately it's just been too much for me. I've enough to be stressed out about in real life, logging in to my hobby shouldn't make me want to be sure that I have regular access to alcohol or xanax or whatever. I could say that it was hard to come to this conclusion but it wasn't. I deliberated over it because I didn't want to hurt people's feelings or think that it was because of something else but it made the most sense.

I will gladly go to PSLs or very small, private games where I know everyone but other than that I'm really, truly done. I'll still be around on AIM or here. I'm more than happy to stay in touch with people who want that or whatever. This is something I've been contemplating for weeks. Timing is bad and I'm sure this could have waited for better but honestly? I just didn't want to wait anymore. I make no apologies for this as I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not going to have real internet until August I think anyway and who knows, maybe by then I'll feel differently. Right now I need this break.