Lily | Marlene
So apologize. You're the one who broke it off this time. Presumably he would've been happy to stay on. Otherwise, you've been on for a while. You only break up when there's danger. You break up to keep from hurting each other more.
I don't know. It's a bit twisted, and I obviously don't know the intricacies of your relationship, I'm not there for the nitty-gritty bits, but it sounds like love to me.
Apologize. Start talking again. Tell him why you broke up with him. Tell him what you told me. Even if you don't use that precise word right away, at least it opens up discussion. You'd be saying it without saying it. If he's clever, he might even hear it.