Marlene McKinnon
I've been wondering the same things. I know that I'm meant to have all of the answers, but I'm only human. I'm not the one keeping you here. She sent my husband back to die as well, and he'd only just arrived compared to some others. He wasn't given the chances others were to grow and
I know have the answers you want. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that he's gone. I hope that he'll come back as he was.
In the meantime, please don't do anything rash. I know how you feel. How lost and betrayed you feel. How angry. I've felt it myself, more than once. When she took my daughter away to die. When she took Ted. When she took others when I was in the same position as you.
You're not alone. You have friends here and the possibility of seeing Benjy and your family again. You're not alone to feel this grief. Others have been there before you, others are there with you now and others yet will feel it in months to come. This isn't to minimize your pain but to give you hope: it will be resolved. It always is.