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Tweak says, "I didn't return them."

penn arthur royce (_penn) wrote,
@ 2010-03-30 18:15:00

Spent yesterday attempting to clean out the mess that is my one small closet because Ami said that it was too full and if the niece has a complaint, I must do something to fix it. Anyhow, as I was digging through all the crap trying to decide what to keep and what to get rid of .. I came across this picture.

I honestly don't remember when it was taken. There's a ton of them sitting in a box in the closet. Stuff my Mom tossed together when I moved out after high school, things she thought I'd want to have. I can't say that I ever actually looked through the stuff before but after ten years, I thought it was about time I saw what was in there.

Funny. Even though I can't remember the exact time or location the photo was taken, I remember how close we all used to be. Not entirely sure what changed but I guess everything has to shift at some point. Amanda and I kept in close contact but over time, it seems that Danielle and I have drifted. It's a shame. She's an amazing person and I miss having her in my life.

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aesthetical
2010-03-31 03:26 pm UTC (link)

Oh. Wow. I can honestly not remember the last time we had a picture like this. I remember that necklace. I think I may still have it, even. And I think Chase is trying to steal your title as my favorite.

Penn.
Dani's always been the brighter star. It sort of makes sense that she'd go seeking out better constellations. We're not the same kids on the playground anymore.

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Mandie.

_penn
2010-03-31 10:40 pm UTC (link)

You know. I think I've just tried to tell myself that Dani wasn't, that she was just like you and me, that .. we'd always be as close as we were before. But you're right. As much as I hate to admit it, she had to outgrow us eventually. Or, well, no. She had to outgrow me eventually. You might not be as famous or 'all important' as ~~she seems to think she is~~she is, but you're still brighter than I am. And you can tell me that's not true until you're blue in the face but it is. The two of you, you've always had these big dreams that force you into the spotlight and I don't. I never have. I'm amazed that you even still talk to me sometimes. But then, you were always more down to Earth than she was.

Now, that isn't saying that I think badly of Dani. I don't. She'll always be a big part of my youth and I'll always be proud of her, proud that I knew her before all the glitz and glam. But .. you're right. We're just not those kids anymore. This snapshot is about all that's left of them.

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Penn.

aesthetical
2010-04-01 12:00 am UTC (link)

You said it right the first time. She had to outgrow us eventually. Because, yeah, okay, I'll admit it. When I first started all the serious music stuff, it was because I wanted to be in the spotlight. I wanted to be something other than just that Stevenson girl or Danielle's best friend. I wanted to be...something that meant more. But these days? I don't care about fame. Sure, it's great to have connections and all, but I don't make music to sell records or have a fanbase or win awards. I make music because it's what speaks to me. It's the way I express myself. At the end of the day, I'm just Mandie. And that's all I'll always be. At least until Lyric starts school. Then I lose Mandie and become Lyric's mom.

We've all grown up. And as much as that sucks, it was bound to happen eventually. Just don't think you're getting rid of me, Royce. :P

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