penn arthur royce (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} _penn) wrote, |
It hurt, yeah. You just said no and walked away from me. If you'd told me this .. if you'd told me what you were feeling, I would have understood. I'm not trying to rush you into anything. I don't want to do that. I don't want to make you do anything you don't want to, or make you feel like your world is spinning out of control. This whole .. having a baby thing? It scares me, too. And if it was anybody else, I'd be absolutely terrified, unable to think or breathe. But I'm having a baby with you. I'm living with you. I love you, Chase. And .. I don't think you quite understand that, or .. want to fully believe it. Which, I get. I do. But those feelings? They aren't going anywhere and I'll wait forever if I have to. It was bad timing and too much at once and .. I'm sorry for that. I'm truly sorry for that. My feelings for you? They haven't changed and they aren't going to. Whether you marry me or not .. I'm going to love you, I'm going to be there for you. For you and our baby. And .. just know that even with you saying 'no' .. I'm not going anywhere. And, well .. I guess I just read into things with the lyrics. Because to me? It definitely seemed like you screaming for an out. Glad to know I was wrong.