mrs. royce (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} caroyce) wrote, |
I didn't know how to say any of this at the time! Penn, my head was spinning. I didn't know what was up, and what was down. It's .. not just having a baby. It's .. having a baby, falling in love, moving in, getting married. A year ago .. I was chasing storms. I was on my own, I was self-reliant. And I don't regret what's happened, not at all, but it's just a huge change. It's a big difference. I'm not used to relying on someone else. I'm not used to any of this. You've been .. waiting for all of this since .. forever. For me, it's like I'm playing this huge game of catch-up.
I don't want you to be sorry for it. I'm sorry for hurting you, but .. I don't ever want you to be sorry. Because .. I don't want to be a mistake to you. And .. I think we need to finish this in person. But I love you. So very much.