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PERSONALITY

Self-deprecating and sarcastic. Ben uses humor as a mask for most things, often making himself the butt of his jokes. He teases those he enjoys being around the most. Internally, Ben struggles with anger and guilt and often there is more going on under the surface than what his expressive features will even expose.

QUIRKS

Tries to never use to a card for anything. Cash is king, and often will leave the cards at home. Cash needs to be stored in his wallet faces up, with all denominations in increasing order, placed into this wallet and folder in half only once. That is the only correct way. Keys and wallet have a particular spot to go or he definitely will not be able to find it. Consistently will count something at least twice, if not three times. Often will seem like he's looking off into space and not paying attention to anything in particular. Has a knack for finding things he isn't supposed to find. Generally, always has at least one guy that could find him something on the fly.

LIKES

Sneakers - particularly Nikes and Jordans. His small collection is well maintained and immaculate and is currently trying to not purchase more because he knows how easily he could re-sell them should he ever need to. Dressing comfortably and casually. Hip-Hop and rap music. The darkest of gallows humour. Self-deprecation. People who are in on the joke. Weed. So much fucking weed.

DISLIKES

The dad-shoe thing that's happening right now - that's fucking terrible. Being without his meds that he actually needs. Needing to get his medications adjusted because that's equally terrible. Feeling as though everyone is in his business. His mom. His step-dad and pretty much anyone who insists to him that she isn't some kind of garbage human. The person who smoked the last of the weed and didn't replenish the stash.

APPEARANCE

Brown, course, curly hair that is usually kept short. When he needs a haircut it often curls into his ears and drives him a bit crazy. Dark brown eyes, with dark circles beneath that seemingly stick around even if he ever got a good night's rest. 6 foot 3 inches, though his posture is something terrible. Lanky and his clothes often appear oversized just because he needs to buy the size up just for length.

He has an abundance of tattoos all over his body with varying degrees of skill that they were applied. Some appear to be done at home. Some look like they are poorly done stick and poke. Most have a really good story behind them and you can tell when he's excited to talk about them.


HISTORY

For the most part, Ben had a fairly normal childhood. Born to Noah and Lorraine Carmichael. Their first child. A bouncing baby boy, with more energy than they knew what do with. Ben's first word hilariously had been an emphatic NO! only because he heard it so often. He was curious and energetic and so what if it meant that his head had gotten stuck between the rungs of the hand rail on the stairs. He seemed eager and hungry for experiences. He was later diagnosed with ADHD, and placed on a medication so he was less disruptive in class, but he still maintained an exuberance to him that didn't seem to be easily extinguished. He enjoyed the outdoors, particularly hunting and hiking and fishing with his grandfather. He didn't golf but was eager to go out with his father when time allowed to go to the course and drive the golf carts. He had a large group of friends and played soccer and was excited continue on in his sophomore year of high school.

That was until his world seemed to fall apart at the seams. He was the one who caught his mother in bed with another man -- and not just any man. His high school soccer coach. He was the one who called his father in the middle of the day to come home. And while a lot of kids would put the blame unintentionally on themself - the anger bubbled and was directed solely on one single person. His mother. Pay no mind that his father had been largely absent out of their lives, near living at the hospital for most of Ben's childhood. That rage, even though largely directed at his mother spiraled. Ben himself acting out for most of high school and ending in him not even graduating but acquiring a not so cute drug problem. A problem that he reveled in for the better part of five years.

Only recently has he gotten clean - now gaining on approximately one year. Ben is still very much in the thick of it, and has kicked hard drugs, but still indulges in alcohol, weed and cigarettes, something that on occasion does get him into some hot water.

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