Thursday: October/30/08 - AIM: Starbuck/Wes Starbuck: What's wrong? Wes: im not talking to anyone Starbuck: Well, you better type to me at least. Wes: why Starbuck: Because I said so. Wes: yeh no Starbuck: Seriously, you okay? Wes: im in my room drinking and intend to stay this way for as long as humanly possible, or until i dont know whats happening any more Starbuck: Drinking isn't good for you, and being a medical professional, you know that. Wes: i do not fucking care Wes: and i am not professional iwas a nurse at an ex junkie fucking clinic or wahtever Starbuck: If that were true, I wouldn't have suggested you look after my pregnant girlfriend and second child. Wes: right Starbuck: You're smart and good at your job when you want to be. Wes: is there a point to this or Starbuck: I don't want you dying from misery. Wes: then do me a favour, get roger back and we'll all be cosy. Starbuck: I would if I could. Wes: ok then goodbye Starbuck: Do you want to come over for dinner? Wes: no Starbuck: Can I bring some food over there for ya? Wes: no. im in my room, im staying in my room Wes: i got an ex girlfriend and a kid that'l try feed me when i dont come out Starbuck: So what can I do? Wes: nothing, starbuck. Starbuck: I gotta do something. Wes: just go be with your gir. Starbuck: My girl is fine right now. You're not. Wes: dude Starbuck: Come over for dinner. Wes: i'll pass. Starbuck: I'm sorry about Roger leaving. I'm sure he didn't want to. Wes: yeah he didnt but he went anyway Starbuck: He still loves you. Wes: that means a hell of a shit all cause of the fact he's not here Starbuck: It means something. Better than him not loving you, right? I've been down that road, and it sucks. Wes: he's not fucking here!!! Wes: just go away Starbuck: Nope. Not going away. Wes: fu Starbuck: I'll leave that to my woman. Wes: thats not even funny Starbuck: Look, here's how it is. You love Roger, and he might come back, and then things will be awesome again. Or, he won't come back, you'll hurt for a while, but then one day you will find someone else. Wes: why does everyone say i'll fucking find someone else Starbuck: I know it doesn't feel that way right now, but you will. Wes: listen, it took me 40 goddamn years to find roger, and i aint got another 40 in me Starbuck: Who said it will take 40? Tomorrow you could run into the man or woman who makes you believe in shit again. Wes: no Wes: that'd be nice Wes: "i forget roger all is well!" Starbuck: I didn't say that. You won't forget him. Wes: and i forgot to mention, im not going anywhere, so unless some fucking god falls through my ceiling then no Starbuck: New people show up at this school all the damn time. Wes: im not. going. anywhere,. Starbuck: You won't stay in your room forever. Wes: yes i will Starbuck: Nope. You have to come back to school eventually. Wes: no Starbuck: You have responsibilities. Wes: they dont want me Starbuck: I want you, and so does Kim. We need your help. Wes: i knew your girlfriend wanted me, but you? i suspected you were a closet case but starbuck you choose your times Starbuck: I'm the one who recommended she ask you. Starbuck: And stop twisting my words into something perverted. Wes: great, so im a pervert now Starbuck: Come on, man, I mean it, we trust you to help us through this pregnancy. Wes: great. Starbuck: And everyone else at school needs you too. Wes: get em to sighn a fucking petition, i dont car.e Wes: nobody else cares, i dont care, forget it Starbuck: You really want to set that kind of example for Mandy? Starbuck: Show her that giving up is ok? Wes: mandy doesn't need me to lead her, she is scared of me. Wes: i'm a failure to her, she doesnt follow me Wes: she hasnt done for 17 years, she wont now Starbuck: So give her something to believe in. It's not too late for you to get your shit together and be her dad. Wes: she doesnt need me Starbuck: Yes she does. Wes: she's made it clear she doesnt. Starbuck: Lies. She needs you. Starbuck: And even if she didn't, you should still try. Wes: stop telling me what i have to do Starbuck: Someone needs to. Wes: no, they dont Starbuck: I'm not going to stand by while you fall apart. Wes: you dont gotta stand anywhere Starbuck: I do. We're healers. Helping people is what we do. Wes: not with your mouth. its not your strong suit. Starbuck: Insulting me isn't going to make me give up. Wes: fine. bye. Starbuck: Things will get better, Wes. I promise. Wes: whatever Starbuck: You have to want it though. Wes: thank you guru starbuck you have changed my life Starbuck: I just want to help, Wes. There are a lot of people who care about you, and we can't watch you throw away your life. Wes: thanks Starbuck: You can be a pain in the ass, but you're still my friend. Wes: yeah Starbuck: Take some time off, take care of yourself, and let me know if I can help. Wes: k Starbuck: It's my birthday Saturday. You leaving your room would be a nice present. Wes: happy birthday you easy to please freak Starbuck: I'm not big on presents. Starbuck: I like giving them, but it doesn't bother me when I don't get any. Wes: sure. Wes: later