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Tempest Serenity Ainsley-Tennyson (_tempest) wrote,
@ 2013-01-24 13:29:00

Horrible dreams last night. ~~How do you know when you're having a mental meltdown?~~ I can't wait for this quarter to be over. I am so exhausted. ~~Not to mention confused about everything.~~ Just two more weeks! I think I can make it. I really need a break from this place. ~~And everyone in it.~~

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	Tempest/Tybalt _tybalt 2013-01-25 03:48 am UTC (link)
	Anything I can do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-25 07:57 am UTC (link)
	Maybe cut off Luka's fingers and slice out his tongue so I don't have to read/hear any of his idiocy anymore? Other than that, no. I had a dream about mom last night. And, you know, some other people too. It all just sort of blurred together and didn't make a lot of sense, like most dreams don't, but the theme was all the same. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tempest/Tybalt _tybalt 2013-01-25 04:02 pm UTC (link)
	No but I am thinking a nice gag and bound hands for a week might temper him some. If I have my way he will be mine after next quarter's auction, at least for a week. You know I am curious to know what you remember about the dream Tem, but I also understand if you don't want to tell me, or you can't remember. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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_tempest
2013-01-25 04:47 pm UTC (link)

In that case, I wish you the best of luck. And yes, I think it would definitely do him some good. I really just don't get what his problem is with me.

I don't remember most of it. Like I said, it was nonsensical and it all sort of ran together. It just left me angry and upset.

I guess I just don't understand how she could just leave us. Did she even think about how that decision would affect us? Did she care at all? Or is she just like everyone else, act first and only stop to think about it when it was too late to matter, when it's already done all the damage it's going to do?

I hate her.

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_tybalt
2013-01-25 05:04 pm UTC (link)

You and him have never gotten along. Plus you are an easy tatget to upset me since he can not just do that. He wants to attack me but can't so he attacks those I care most about like you and Jonathan.

I don't think it was us she was leaving but father. I would, at least I choose to think that she would have taken us with her if she thought she could take care of us. There is part of me that refuses to believe a woman that wanted to devote herself to the church would have children only to abandon them. We don't nor will we ever know the whole story. Maybe the dream was trying to tell you, you need to forgive her. Hating her isn't going to change things Tem. It is not going to make her any less gone.

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	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-25 06:04 pm UTC (link)
	And why can't he, exactly? You can believe what ever you want to, Tybalt, but she did abandon us. Reasons, no reasons, it doesn't change the fact that she left us and didn't try. I can't forgive her. If anything, the dream just reiterated why I can't and won't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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_tybalt
2013-01-25 06:54 pm UTC (link)

Because as much as he will not admit it he still loves me. At least that is my theory as to why he is the way he is around us.

I still think there is more to it that she simply abandoned us. Maybe I just want to see the good in people and not the bad. You don't know that she didn't try. Why do you think I want to find out about her. Found out what she was like, so maybe I can answer some of those questions.

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	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-25 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	We have all the answers already. Or are you saying that our father is a liar? He's a lot of things, Tybalt, but he's not a liar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tybalt 2013-01-26 02:38 am UTC (link)
	I don't know if the father you are talking about is the the same one I have tried to talk to time and time again, but all he will ever say to me is she left and was killed in a car accident. That is not much if any information about her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-26 02:41 am UTC (link)
	If that's all there is to the story, then what else would he say? You know it has to be painful for him too. Why else would he still be single after all these years? I just think you're grasping at straws to hold onto this idea of this woman that doesn't align at all with what we know of her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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_tybalt
2013-01-26 02:52 am UTC (link)

I don't think that is all there is to the story. I want to know more. I need to know more than what little I do. What do we really know. Her name, she was born and raised in France. She wanted to be a nun. Somehow father convinced her not to. They married, she had us, and then left. The she was gone. That story is lacking a lot and I want, need, that lot. She is part of me and I need to know her as much as I can.

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	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-26 02:54 am UTC (link)
	Well good luck with that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tempest/Tybalt _tybalt 2013-01-26 02:57 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-26 02:58 am UTC (link)
	Though, to point out something you said earlier, it's not going to bring her back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tempest/Tybalt _tybalt 2013-01-26 03:14 am UTC (link)
	I know that, but it will make her more real. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tempest/Tybalt _tempest 2013-01-26 03:18 am UTC (link)
	You may not like what you find out. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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