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Tweak says, "It’s him! Our teen stalker!"

_withoutacause (_withoutacause) wrote,
@ 2012-02-14 23:37:00

Who: Sirius and Lily
What: A walk around the lake
When: Tuesday late afternoon
Where: Gryffindor common room, then down through the castle and on the grounds
Rating: PG-13
Status: Incomplete

Sirus was losing his mind. It was the only explanation (or at least the only explaination he was willing to entertain. Everything else was just...) He'd ended up sleeping most of yesterday away, cuddled up against Remus' side like a child with a security blanket. He'd woken up once or twice, but fell back to sleep almost immediatly after reassuring himself that Remus was still there. Once he'd woken alone, and the overwhelming panic he'd felt had been nearly enough to drive him mad.

He had skivved off classes again today, though he knew he was going to have to face the rest of the world sooner of later. He didn't hurt as badly anymore, so there was at least that. Nothing left but a memory of pain and a stifness that he could probably work out if he did something other than lie in his bed and try not to think.

But when Lily asked him to walk with her he couldn't really say no. Remus was still hurting, that much was obvious. He hadn't said anything, probably never would, but Sirius could tell. And he didn't blame him, after what Sirius had said on Sunday he was surprised his friend hadn't tried to punch him one. Like James. James was clearly still furious with him. Lily was the only one who seemed to be willing to talk to him, and he didn't want to push her away. So he pulled himself out of bed, and even managed to put on a clean shirt before trudging downstairs to meet her.

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doed
2012-02-15 08:46 am UTC (link)

Lily was desperately worried about Sirius. After getting him the potion, she had let James take it upstairs, not wanting to intrude on any kind of time Sirius and Remus were having. She figured James would be a more welcome figure than herself, especially since he had had time to cool off. She hadn't seen or talked to Sirius until this morning and it pained her to read his messages. There was something there that still seemed off and she wanted to try and help as much as she could.

She had been in the library studying when she started talking with him through the journals. She had ended up skipping class that day, something quite unlike herself. It was a lot to take in and she wanted to be there for her new friends, just in case. She ended up spending most of her time with James in the common room before he coaxed her outside to practice a few Quidditch moves. It was nice to be out and just fly around after everything. He certainly knew how get their minds off the pain in the Gryffindor Tower. She had also spent most of her time arguing with Severus once more.

As soon as she had gotten Sirius' confirmation, she had packed up her things and headed straight back to the common room. When she stepped through the portrait, he was already there waiting for her. She smiled and set her bag on a chair, walking over to him. "Hey," she said. "You're starting to look better," she said truthfully. He still looked waned and white, but definitely not as bad as when he had first walked into the room.

"Ready to go?" she asked, nodding her head outside.

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_withoutacause
2012-02-15 06:09 pm UTC (link)

Sirius nodded, not really trusting himself to speak just yet. He stood and gave her a small, half smile as he followed her out into the cooridor.

They walked in silence, but Sirius could feel the tension. He closed his eyes briefly, then reached out and touched her shoulder.

"Lils," his voice was rough, he hadn't spoken a word since yesterday morning. "I'm really sorry."

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doed
2012-02-16 06:59 am UTC (link)

Lily didn't want to push him any more than he wanted, so she walked with him in silence. She was surprised by his actions as well as everyone else, but the way he had looked the following morning...she couldn't help but feel like there was something else going on there. She wanted to support him and give advice if she could, but only if he wanted it.

She stopped with him, surprised obvious on her face when he apologized. "What are you apologizing for?" she asked, puzzled.

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	_withoutacause 2012-02-16 07:08 am UTC (link)
	Sirius shrugged, suddenly feeling incredibly shy. "Just... Everything. Last night. I was, I was out of my mind, I think." I still am He rubbed a hand over his face. "I don't even really know what happened, except..." He sighed. "I'm just really sorry." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

doed
2012-02-16 07:13 am UTC (link)

She shook her head, taking a step towards him and reaching out to squeeze his arm. "It's alright Sirius, really. I must admit, I was a little surprised to hear about it, but I think there's more to it then we all know. I'm here for you just like Remus and James and Peter, we'll figure this out. The important thing is to keep going forward, right?" She smiled, looping her arm through his.

"You know you'll have to forgive yourself too," she said, suddenly feeling like the wise old teacher. "I think you'll start to feel better when you do."

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_withoutacause
2012-02-16 07:23 am UTC (link)

Sirius smiled slightly, glancing to the left. His eyes alighted on the statue of a centuar rearing back. He'd seen it pretty much every day for the past seven years, they almost always came this way to get to the Great Hall, but today there was something about it. Something... His mind turned over, click, and everything changed.

"So, Lake then?" He winked at her, then held out his arm for her to take. "I think a stroll would be lovely."

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doed
2012-02-16 08:08 am UTC (link)

Lily was surprised by his sudden change, but didn't question it. She grinned and took his arm. "I agree. The weather has been rather lovely lately. I want to take advantage of this strange warmth while we still can! Knowing our luck, the next couple of months will just be filled with rain and snow." She made a face. She liked winter, but the warmth of spring and summer were more to her liking.

It was nice to walk lazily through the courtyard on Sirius' arm. She couldn't help but roll her eyes at the girls who followed them with their eyes, turning to each other to giggle and whisper to themselves once they had passed.

"Your popularity with the girls is ridiculous sometimes," she said light heartedly. "I feel like we should walk a couple feet apart so news doesn't get back to James." While she had confided in Molly that she wasn't sure if she wanted to be anything official with James, she couldn't help feeling like she didn't want him to think she was fancying anyone else.

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	_withoutacause 2012-02-16 08:21 am UTC (link)
	"They're all a bunch of stupid bitches anyway." He sneered at one of the girls closest to him. "And who cares what James thinks? Let people talk, it's far more entertaining." He let his hand slide down till it was cupping her arse. "Mmm. I thought so. Very firm." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

doed
2012-02-16 09:04 am UTC (link)

Lily was caught off guard by his comment and turned to look at him, but what he did next was even more appalling.

"SIRIUS MARIE BLACK WHAT THE BLOODY HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?" She pushed him away from her, her eyes blazing. He had always been flirtatious with her, but he had never grabbed her like that before.

"Are you out of your mind? Why'd you do that?" She crossed her arms over her chest wondering what had come over him. The girls who had been watching were cheering for Lily as she shoved him.

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_withoutacause
2012-02-16 05:21 pm UTC (link)

Sirius laughed. It was a harsh, angry laugh, a sound Sirius had never made before. He looked Lily up and down, eyeing her like a piece of meat, before licking his lips and whistling.

"I can see why he likes you, you're all fire sweetcheeks."

He began walking away, with an easy strut that was almost the same as Sirius' ordinary confident stride, but seemed somehow too calculated, too forced to ve real.

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doed
2012-02-17 02:32 am UTC (link)

At first she thought he was just joking around with her, but there was something about his attitude that just seemed...off. "Sirius, what's wrong with you?" she asked, suddenly feeling very uncomfortable. She had never seen him act like this; in fact it was the complete opposite of what he was. After their conversation about him and girls, she saw him as a totally different person. But now he seemed to be everything he tried not to be.

She didn't follow him, but rather watched as he continued to make his way across the courtyard. "You're walking by yourself I hope you know!" She shouted after him.

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_withoutacause
2012-02-17 05:45 am UTC (link)

"Well then," he tossed over his shoulder. "You'd better hurry up if you intend to stay with the party. Decide quickly though," he reached out ad grabbed the wrist of a pretty Hufflepuff fifth year who was watching the exchange. "I won't wait for long, and you are so easilly replaced."

He tugged the girl in and planted a kiss on her shocked mouth. She pulled away, looking horrified, then slapped him across the face. He staggard back, looking dazed and disoriented.

Click.

Sirius blinked, looking down at a horrified Hufflepuff, and wondering when the Hell they'd gotten outside.

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doed
2012-02-17 09:22 am UTC (link)

Lily watched him proceed ahead without her, her mouth hanging open as he grabbed another girl and promptly kissed her. She wasn't very surprised when she saw the smack coming, but walked over towards him anyway. He was acting so strangely she was nervous to see how he would take to it.

She gave the girl an apologetic look before turning her attention to her friend once more.

"Sirius, what's gotten into you?" she asked, grabbing his arm and pulling him to face her. "Are you feeling alright? I mean...this isn't like you at all! Do you need to go to the hospital wing? Or maybe I could make you a potion..." But what potion would she make? She racked her brain and couldn't come up with a logical one. She had already exhausted her help with Professor Slughorn so she would have to figure this one out on her own.

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