| Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. |
[Sep. 3rd, 2010|05:14 pm] |
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| | Brand New- The boy who blocked his own shot | ] |
I've been in a slump lately. Doing nothing. Going to bed at 4 am, waking up at 2 pm. Just having no motivation to do anything.
Tori texted me yesterday and she said she has to tell me something. That its the worst thing she's done yet, and that I will hate her. I don't really know how she could get worse. I don't know if I ever wrote about this but she had sex with this kid name Kevin. She was really drunk and I thought she'd learn from that mistake and stop drinking. She promised she would. A week later, she fucked him again. I don't know how she could do something worse than that. I told her she's changed a lot recently and she said "i know i know and i think thats why we have drifted because i know you don't wanna be around me when im doing that & i hate that we barely hang out..sounds pathetic but i feel lost with u sometimes." I said I understand, and I don't really know what to say. She said "um okay. and im sorry if you hate me." I said I don't.
I don't knooooooooooow what to do. I feel like this is where she needs her bestfriend most. But then again, I feel like I've tried so many times. I don't even want to deal with it. I just wish we could back to November when we'd have sleepovers and talk about saving our virginitys for someone that loves us, for someone that we love. I guess she's just growing up. Both of us are. & we're drifting a part.
I just texted her and asked if she wanted to come over so we can talk. Let's see what happens. |
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