| If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad. If it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad? |
[Apr. 4th, 2011|08:43 pm] |
I am very tired. Flash backs and memories from Robby won't leave my mind. I would do anything for them to stop. It doesn't matter where I am, they will always enter my mind as if their demons ready to succum all my happy thoughts I had been working up to through out the day. I could be walking down the hallway and then BAM! Visions of Robby caressing my breasts and kissing them. I could be laughing in class with Greg and then BAM! You're not happy, remember? I could be walking up the staires and see Robby too many steps ahead of me. Too many. And remember when I was walking up those steps with him, hand in hand. Everyone tells me it's the relationship I miss and want, not him. Maybe their right. I don't know. All I know is that I'm deeply unhappy. And sometimes I feel like maybe I'm destined to be unhappy. It's in my bones, my DNA, to be depressed. That scares me. |
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