covert_ (covert_) wrote, @ 2010-07-07 22:57:00 |
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Current mood: | optimistic |
Current music: | Ryshon Jones- That night with rose |
Yeah you smile, but I can see the fucking devil in your grin.
The scar on my wrist is so dark. I look at it often. Today after me and Chris left my mom's house right away she called Brendan. I said "Whipped!" and she said "Oh shut up, you slit your wrists when joey joyce or joe doesn't call you." I got quiet. Of course she doesn't know..and that was a joke. But still. I used to hide the scar with silly bands but now my wrist is bare. No one knows and I don't plan on telling anyone. I don't want them to think its a cry for attention. Which most people think when they find out someone cuts. 'Attention whores' they say. Thats not it at all. I feel weak when I look at my scar, and I'm scared someone will soon notice it and ask about it. I don't really know what I could say.
Joe and I are good. We have talked recently and we video chatted last night. I don't really know whats going to happen with us but hey, whatever happens, happens. I saw Eclipse tonight and it was really good. I'm going to Dallas's on friday! I'm excited, I haven't seen her in a year. Joe is leaving for Myrtle Beach on Friday and won't be back till the 19th. Sucks. I still feel like he's not tottatly into me and I don't want to waste any time on that but right now I cherish our friendship.